Well well well, 2 weeks of confinement is over already... Like finally. Within the 2 weeks, many things have been established in army already. Achieved Marksman already, YES! Rifles parade, it was an awesome experienced. I wanted to share this, during the parade, i had goosebumps... The feeling and patriotism to serve our nation, it's just amazing. During the same parade, we also got our formation badge which usually, no other units might have got first and all. I am PROUD to be under the Commando Unit. 'For Honor & Glory'... It just been what i have been saying and having in my thought throughout the 2 weeks in camp. During the time in camp, i have not really been thinking about home, because it kinda my destiny to serve the nation and to adapt to such which i am serving NS. Didn't bother me much about my family members as they too understand that their son has to serve the nation. Mother only seem to be texting almost everyday, inquiring how i have been and all. Sis seemed to be fine and also my father and mother were just doing fine. But, it was my gf that was all in my mind throughout the 2 weeks, just terribly missing her badly. I never expected to really miss her this much. As much as i was so strong thinking that i have to adapt to this life and also, to not worry much about things here and there, but i just could not help but to not stop myself thinking about baby girl. 

How is it that my gf have made such an impact in my life? This 2 weeks just made me realize it strongly. Sigh. It is really amazing how a girl who just came into your life play a big part in your life already... I am really fortunate to have met such a girl in my life. :)

And so, after bookout when to meet dearie straight and i was already feeling unwell, high fever reached to the max once i reached home and my throat was really painful. Spitting phlegm which was yellowish and bloody, sigh it was just painful. :( Nevertheless, the following day, i had to meet up my parents, granny s yeah... So first went to Clementi and then to Pandan Gardens. By the time we reached home was about 11 already i guess. I had so much of good time at Pandan Gardens more the Clementi, Sigh! FAMILY POLITCS!!! Just crazy... As for today, it was a Friday and yeah, i was at home all the while, just sleeping and watching Tv, what more can i do, did some pushups, have to prepare myself for the IPPT that is coming up the following week. Have to really keep myself up to the standard. 

I can just never understand one thing, when someone is down and feeling kinda upset, especially that someone is your loved one, would you like make a bit effort to make that person feel better? Hmm... Maybe in my case, it is a question mark. Sigh, i never really wanted any sort of like , "cheer up, things will be fine and all..." from my friends. Even if my friends tend to cheer me up when i am down, it didn't really like, make an impact to me, but when i would one such saying or statement from my girlfriend, sigh, it seems difficult i guess. Because when i tend to get angry or moody that will annoy or spoil her mood as well... SO that case, i can't really be myself is it? 

I feel upset that today has to be over so fast, came in the morning, 8-11, was sitting down alone, after that, from 11-1, dear was with me, sitting by my side, even then also, she had work to do, was watching movie la, but not long also, and then she going back to class at 1, ends at 2, after that another hour, her father will be here. Guys, just answer me this ah...
Neither of us didn't expect her father to come and fetch her, i do understand its not her fault, but i am fucking upset that she has to leave early today, is it fucking wrong to feel such? IS IT? Please answer this? :(

Life is always unfair at times... At times, you can't really get what you have expected or sometimes even, you are not really granted the wishes you have wished in life... But one thing is for sure, everything happens for a reason and always keep your head up. That's that you have to know and carry out each day, being positive and i mean literally. 

Today is kinda an unusual day. HAHA! Yes, i am kinda 'Laughing', you'll see... :P
Woke up in the morning and went to meet dearie today! So went to hougang. Her first class starts at like 9, and i was pretty sure i was there like at 8 plus, knowing the fact that there might be 70% of higher chance of taking taxi and so, i kinda delayed my time today of leaving the house and reached there just in time when dearie was already at Florence road! I happened to have got my belt back from dad so i thought of wearing something nice today, so yeah! I did wore something nice today i guess, not that i am self praising, that was what my dear told when she looked at me today! Thanks love! XOXO!
And so, we waited like 30 minutes and more and decided to call a cab, thank god we got one, but we were still late! Sigh! So i while waiting, i was watching some movie in the youtube using my phone, it was some tamil movie that was thrilling... Not really finished watching fully, went to get food for dearie and poor baby, she was hungry. and so, i fed her rice and after that she went for her next lesson. And so after school, we both went to Clark Quay so that dearie could get her eyebrows done. And once it was done, we were heading towards botanic gardens. But, while on our way, i have to accept something, i feel it was my fault, i should have shown a bit more responsibility on taking care of our belongings as i was handling them all, i kinda made dearie walk back and all, and she was really very tired. sigh! I am so sorry for my actions love. Please forgive me for being careless. And so we went to botanic gardens and from there we took a cab to Turf City. And finally we found the place. It was our first time going to this place to rent a car. And from there we drove to amk, and from there i went back home and dear went back home. 

Baby and I, we both know that i did not went in details on what happened along the way and more of my feelings and all, i just felt that its something private between us and i do not really wanna go in detailed about it... Just to let you know dear...

I kinda had a bitter experience today while driving by your side ma, but i was so glad that you did. You have no idea how long i was waiting for such a moment and YES, it did happen today. You drove me today my love! I really wanna thank you so much for that dear! Thank you so much my love! It was really a good experience we had had today. I also wanna take this time to seek apology if there was any way i have hurt you or said anything to hurt you my love... I am sorry dear... Just at times, i feel like not really treated like a boyfriend dear. It really hurts me so badly dear, it was because of that, that forced me to go for a run today! I swear i was so tried and wanted to sleep, but my heart felt so heavy dear. Some way i had to alight in the interchange dear? Sigh! I understood the fact that there was buses behind all ma, but i can't really accept such thing dear, i am sorry love! I hope i am not asking much from you love! I just felt so hurt today. If you were to realize, i might have sound a bit cold if you were to realize the way i was texting you love. I ddin't wanna text you dear, honestly, but i missed you so much, and i can't just be like this long either dear. Sigh, i still feel slightly heavy ma, but its alright dear, After all, you're my babygirl!!!

I love you so so so so so much baby... Be patient in handling anything dear, anger is the cause for problems and not the solution to them love... Forgive me for hurting you in any way my love, Have a good rest, take care of your self my love... XOXO! 

Well, lets just say its the new year to 2015, Happy New Year yeah! :) Its the 4th Jan 2015. Today, i just came back from my granny place and i am very glad to see my grandparents, the fact that they seem more glad to see me as well! :) After that, came back home, and then watching Bad Boys II now! :) Hehe! Guessing baby just had her macs SUPPER! hehe! Such a pig, but i can;t simply see her be in hunger so i had to do what i had to do! :) AND YAY! BABY is feeling full now! hehe! :) I am missing my baby badly. 

I am kinda excited the fact that i am gonna meet my precious girl soon! At the same time, I am counting my days of enlistment! More time with my love!!! I AM MISSING BABY SO BAD! SIGH!!!! I love you so much my dearie.

Hey b, i am sorry if i am putting you through in anything because i love you so much and i want to be very sure i am serious and let you know you mean the world to me my love! I really love you so much and despite whatever circumstances i face, i am ready to go through them, no matter how hard or painful it is dearie. Anything for my precious babygirl! Its worth it baby! TO ME! XOXOXO! :)

Right now, i can't tell where i am right now! But its a place where i love to be at... The sweetest thing my baby just did for me is by pressing my legs for me. I know the my feet kinda stink and all, but the fact that my baby just pressed my legs can just clearly show me how loving she is towards me... Sigh! I am so gifted and lucky.

Today, its a Sunday and yeah, morning had to wake up and go out with my family for lunch. Both parents have been complaining saying that i have been spending time with my friends and have just been working and working and working my ass off... Like seriously, Dammit! Firstly, no proper planning. Secondly, Its kinda embarrassing at times you know. You freaking go in a shop to eat then you see the menu and then you just walk out. Worse part, when you enter a shop which just opened and you asked if the kitchen is open. Then what you, you just leave, Why? Because the food is kinda expensive. I did told you'll that it will be expensive and yet you just chose to go in to just see and then you leave. I am also a FNB server as well, it can really get annoying at times i swear! DAMN!!! In the end, we end up going to the food court to have our lunch. From there i just left to work, and today at work, it was damn slack la! REALLY DAMN SLACK! On the bright side, it ended well and here i am right now... :)

Okay that's it for today, i am missing my baby very much and i am going to her already! So see ya soon and take care you'll!!!! :) 
~~~CHEERS~~~

I'm in TP. Right now, this very moment, no one will ever feel how I'm feeling right now. I swear I feel like I was thrown away in the garbage. I don't wanna talk about it. I'm really really so tired, the Journey to school from work, left school to go back, wonder if I really were to go back and now back to school again. JUST TO FIND MY WALLET. "Or rather this shows that we are never meant to be.." I wonder why? :( why, at such a situation I had to hear such, I wasn't told anything, was just left behind... I swear it really hurts. I DowAn to call anyone, talk to anyone or tell people what happened. Because, it's just happened!!! Is it gonna change how I feel? I just can't stop tearing thinking about it. ;( it's sooo hurting. ;(

Days and days are passing by... Sigh! It seems time is just going fast and fast, i have no idea why and all... Feel something is wrong with my body system. :(

- Feeling so lazy nowadays

- Have been failing asleep a lot 

- Have not been exercising

- Feeling so lethargic

- Been feeling ill frequently

ARGH!!!!!!!

My enlistment is next year already and i am feeling so tired. Working working working...

I have a choice not to work, but why am i not making use of it to plan well and i could simply exercise. Sigh!!!

I need to work out, I REALLY NEED TO WORKOUT!!! What should i do to keep myself on the right track? :(

Everytime i plan something, in the end, i get off the track!!! I FUCKING NEED TO TRAIN!!!!