Well well well, 2 weeks of confinement is over already... Like finally. Within the 2 weeks, many things have been established in army already. Achieved Marksman already, YES! Rifles parade, it was an awesome experienced. I wanted to share this, during the parade, i had goosebumps... The feeling and patriotism to serve our nation, it's just amazing. During the same parade, we also got our formation badge which usually, no other units might have got first and all. I am PROUD to be under the Commando Unit. 'For Honor & Glory'... It just been what i have been saying and having in my thought throughout the 2 weeks in camp. During the time in camp, i have not really been thinking about home, because it kinda my destiny to serve the nation and to adapt to such which i am serving NS. Didn't bother me much about my family members as they too understand that their son has to serve the nation. Mother only seem to be texting almost everyday, inquiring how i have been and all. Sis seemed to be fine and also my father and mother were just doing fine. But, it was my gf that was all in my mind throughout the 2 weeks, just terribly missing her badly. I never expected to really miss her this much. As much as i was so strong thinking that i have to adapt to this life and also, to not worry much about things here and there, but i just could not help but to not stop myself thinking about baby girl. 

How is it that my gf have made such an impact in my life? This 2 weeks just made me realize it strongly. Sigh. It is really amazing how a girl who just came into your life play a big part in your life already... I am really fortunate to have met such a girl in my life. :)

And so, after bookout when to meet dearie straight and i was already feeling unwell, high fever reached to the max once i reached home and my throat was really painful. Spitting phlegm which was yellowish and bloody, sigh it was just painful. :( Nevertheless, the following day, i had to meet up my parents, granny s yeah... So first went to Clementi and then to Pandan Gardens. By the time we reached home was about 11 already i guess. I had so much of good time at Pandan Gardens more the Clementi, Sigh! FAMILY POLITCS!!! Just crazy... As for today, it was a Friday and yeah, i was at home all the while, just sleeping and watching Tv, what more can i do, did some pushups, have to prepare myself for the IPPT that is coming up the following week. Have to really keep myself up to the standard. 

I can just never understand one thing, when someone is down and feeling kinda upset, especially that someone is your loved one, would you like make a bit effort to make that person feel better? Hmm... Maybe in my case, it is a question mark. Sigh, i never really wanted any sort of like , "cheer up, things will be fine and all..." from my friends. Even if my friends tend to cheer me up when i am down, it didn't really like, make an impact to me, but when i would one such saying or statement from my girlfriend, sigh, it seems difficult i guess. Because when i tend to get angry or moody that will annoy or spoil her mood as well... SO that case, i can't really be myself is it? 

I feel upset that today has to be over so fast, came in the morning, 8-11, was sitting down alone, after that, from 11-1, dear was with me, sitting by my side, even then also, she had work to do, was watching movie la, but not long also, and then she going back to class at 1, ends at 2, after that another hour, her father will be here. Guys, just answer me this ah...
Neither of us didn't expect her father to come and fetch her, i do understand its not her fault, but i am fucking upset that she has to leave early today, is it fucking wrong to feel such? IS IT? Please answer this? :(