Ok, am 19 yeah! LOL! Nothing else can be a better present except being kept happy on that day! But, i ended being sick the day before my birthday! Watched movie with Divya, the lincoin, vampire thingy! Was fun, then fall sick, was vomiting throughout the night, could not sleep at all, was having high fever! Did not go for tournament sia! Screw it! ARGH!!!! Really pissed ah! FuCK!!!!!!! My dad had to spoil things where he has to scold me in the morning, just because he did not like my hair cut!!! Wad's wrong with my hair cut, seriously! Some day, he made it up for me! 
For the past one week, thoughts were just going on whether divya was the right girl for me, she was in love with me! Not being so thick skin, it was the fact! But, i had to assure, i must love her too, saying i love, i miss you, kisses and hugs, were just words, but i didn't want it to be just words but mean it! But, i couldn't! Something isn't rite!!! I just texted her saying, we shall just be friends!!!


I am not an ass alright!!! I dun wanna be some jerk and just follow along being some ass say i love you, touch and kiss! Fuck sia! No, i wanna show some love and feel it! I could with divya! I am sorry girl! I really didn't wanna hurt you further more nor give you false hopes or even continue living in denial that i just could not feel it with you!!!!!! D: