Its Wednesday ( 14/8/2013), Well, i actually dun wanna blog about today la, cause not really a good actually to talk about, but just gonna update certain things only yeah! Well, went to meet b, in the morning, b was looking lovely, with the dress she was wearing, My love! :) Everything  was just alright, went to Polyclinic, and took the number, had to wait long, so we actually planned to go to the hougang library, went there, it was closed... FROM THEN ONLY BAD TIME STARTED!!! Plus, I told be that i was hungry as well, B, i am sorry that i didn't eat, cause, you see, you didn't wanna eat and plus, simple snacks like curry puffs would be enough for me sweets! Baby, whether you hungry or not, i always want us to eat together one! If i hungry and you're not, its alright dear, you dun need to force yourself to eat, but the thing is i would eat something light ma! Then later when you hungry then i will eat the main course, that is how it works love! I believe the hungry thingy kinda triggered you too! Went to buy curry puff but yet no mood to eat, was stoning outside with my eyes closed, b was there! After i open my eyes, she left! Oh, she also was having her tummy pain :( It is not that easy to find remedies for b at that point of time, plus, i think she had mood swing! But i still dun get the part, why you were mad actually love? Were you irritated about the food thingy? I hope to clarify with you sweets? Its kinda bothering me love! :( I shouldn't have made you work from the blk to hougang mall, but i did not expect that the library was closed b... Well things got bad after that, fought, ran around playing hide and seek in the blk, vulgarities here and there, we were in a way, sparing... Hands going over here and there. Haiz... Well, kinda agitated b, in the clinic to the extend i got a tight slap! Trust me, that was hard... Getting slapped is not that hurt me, cause i mean, my girlfriend, she has all the rights to slap me, of course, but slapping me in front of others is wad hurt me even badly, honestly, i really started tearing on that spot, felt i was humiliated for no reason... Baby, i am not blogging all this to pin point anything love! Please forgive me if i am hurting you b, just wanna update things that happened and remind myself the things that i should have and not have done b! Then, she asked her bag, gave her and went off! Went to meet Dylan, lucky he was at home plus my phone was dying! Went to take the ball back and keep it in B house, that was scary, i swear... Gosh! hahas! Then, Sunida called, she said she took cab, so i asked her come directly to hougang! I really wanted to talk to someone and all, well in the end she was telling her issues and all! Hahas! Its been 3 years since we met, and things went well! :) Then, brought her to TP, but b was not there, felt bad making her go around here and there! sorry sunida! Well once, i send her home, i called marina, and yes she told b was with her, called vaisha and asked if can meet and go meet them together! Worse part was, i had to cry to Marina! Wonder what she was thinking about me? That's kinda embarrassing  Why i must cry all ah? But today, i really got hurt a lot la, still feeling upset on how today went... Met vaisha, and went to near her place, was talking to him along while walking there! I was really scared to see b, i was afraid that she might hit me or say things like i am disgusted to even see you... Cause i was really violent to b! I really couldn't control my emotions, felt at that point of time, i was not treated fairly, crying and talking nicely and yet the response i get... I AM SO SORRY BABY!!! But b, hugged me, I WAS SOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!! I was so happy and glad she came from behind and hugged, well she didn't really straight away and all, she just appeared and i was like, " omg, i am so gonna die now... i swear i was thinking what am i gonna get it from her this time..." Hahas! I am not ashamed to be afraid of my girlfriend, i am proud to say that! She is the only one besides my mother who have all the rights in my life!!!! Well, then it turned out well, went on a double date, to some muslim stall and ate! :) then went back home! Sent b back home and then went back home! 

I am sorry about today love, neither of us had a good day, sorry for hurting you badly love! Really! Please forgive me love? Dun push me away baby! Can't bear the pain not having you with my or by my side? I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY!!!