Sunday ( 11/8/2013)

What a day, god! Was fighting with b, the day before yesterday all the way till like late afternoon with b! Before that, went to dojo in the morning, and after that went back home to collect my things to go meet dylan! We were suppose to train la! Do some kicking and all, so yeah, we went to school! NYP! :( But, my mind was all about b! Haiz! Damn... B was really bothered, she was so stress, she kinda threw me away... ;( Hearing this, i swear i broke out! Dylan saw me tearing, while waiting for him at YCK mrt, i was tearing while talking to Vaisha as well! Tears just come so easily for me when i get hurt so much la! I hate myself for that! hahas! :P Why must i be so sensitive, but why can't i? Something so important to me, going away or pushing me away, it hurts wad...
So, went to play with dylan, more like practice with him and all! But still, Could not! My shots all, went some where! Felt as though, i have been unfair to a guy who happen to not really give me much problems! Confronted him with Dylan at hougang stadium, knowing that it was against my principal, but i still went! Really felt that it was a need to... And i did!!! Felt much better! :/ IN A WAY... After that, went to gym... Then slacked awhile with Dylan and then went back home...! Some day la, honestly, wonder how b suffered or anything? My poor love! 

Monday (12/8/2013)

Went to meet b, in the morning! I was so happy to see her, but morning, i tell you ah! For a minute... I really wanted to get mad and throw things one side, but WHY MUST I LOVE YOU SO MUCH B... Will talk about that later, went to school with b, then had chicken rice and yeah... A DRAMA PUT By Me and B, director, producer, script writer, everything all is by us, in fact the drama is still on going.... SO PLEASE STAY TUNED...
Was playing with b ball, and yes baby, was kinda irritating me as usual! She just loves doing it, hahahs! MY LOVE MY LOVE! YOU AH.... Sent her home, but was not really a farewell i wanted... ;( Kinda disappointed! I was glad that B, opened things to and told me about wad was bothering and all! Thanks love!

I dunno why, sometimes, i just feel that b, somehow tries to push me away... I am so sorry to say this love... Just listen to what i have to say sweets, i am very sure, we can work things out if there are any issues b! I might not be a good adviser or anything, but i will do whatever it takes to ensure it works out well b! I love you so much b! I SWEAR YOU ARE NOT LIKE THE GIRLS I HAVE DATED!!! HATED WHEN YOU SAY THAT I CAN MOVE ON LIKE HOW I DID WITH OTHERS? DID YOU SEE WHAT I WHEN THROUGH? No what baby??? Hurts a lot b, dun push me away love! I am sure sooner or later, we won't be able to spend much time being with one another, i dunno how you might be without me and all, everyday when i wake till i close my eyes to sleep, thoughts are always about you love, no matter what i do too b! Please dun take my love for you for granted or anything b... I am not saying you do, i dunno what other words to use moi! I feel that i am forcing you to love me b!!! I dun wanna force you love me sweets... :( Without you, cannot b, nothing can be right for me b, am not even myself... Life without you isn't complete dear! ;( I swear i am kinda tearing while blogging this b! :( Wonder why i am telling you this, but the thing you said in the bus is what that bothered me much b! NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, I WILL ALWAYS BE BY YOUR SIDE LOVE!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH B!!!! ;(