Its true sometimes, people never change, and no matter what happens, they never learn from the mistakes they made... Its like they say, if you have the guilt that you killed someone, but it wasn't intentionally, but you were the cause of that person's death, sitting near by the sea or the beach, is not gonna clear your sins you have done, but maybe by doing something... Making a difference, in anything... I got this from a dialogue in the movie 'Ranjana', hehe! I'm not so the philosophy type of person laaaa... Blogging now, what ever its in my mind and heart...
I have so affectionate to anyone besides my parents... There was once when my mother went off to Japan, for a month, i terribly missed her so much... I kept seeing her photo, talking to her image... Yeah yeah yeah, its sounds as though its from movie like that, hey come on, usually movie scenes all come from people's daily life story also right!!! I missed her so much, i always cry... I was like about 13 i guess... I am a mother's boy, usually son is mother, daughter is father, I SAID USUALLY, not always... So, when my dad was away to New Delhi, for a week, i though i won't miss him, but there was a day, i think the 3rd day when he was away, there was a call from him, my mother was talking and i did as well, suddenly i burst into tears... I was crying on my mother's lap, this was when i was like 15 i guess! My sis, hehe! I missed her so much also, gawd... I didn't cry all, the annoying one! hehe! But i missed her so much, when she was away to china for like a week... I understand that usually i tend to miss family members when they all are away... Not only me, its usual for all families... 
But when i was away from cambodia... The only person i really missed so much was Prithi. Who is she to me? I just met her like last year? Why should i feel this way towards her... The next person i showed so much love after my mother was her... I love her so much... NOT LOVED  but LOVE her so much... I still do!!! 
Today, in amk, while going up the escalator, i saw a couple, a chinese one, i wonder if prithi saw as well, i doubt so, they were so close to each other, i was having my eyes on them, i was just stoning just for a few seconds... 
I'm really missing those times, those moments that we were so close, everytime we buy something, you would always hold my hands, give me a kiss... so many things, when walking, putting my hand around your waist...
Hey, its just my thoughts and feelings, things do take time, i can never deny that... She told me that we can never be together again and all, as much as i am typing write now, i am feeling damn upset about it upon hearing such from her, hey, certain things i cannot accept, especially when someone or something means so much to me... I used to mean much to her... But my actions/stupidity, ruined it, in fact, i am still upset for being the cause for her to throw away the gift she got me, i swear, am damn upset... MY GAWD!!! I love to receive gifts from my loved ones, especially from the girl i love, means SO MUCH TO ME!!! I ruined it... i cannot forget it... Till this moment, i am thinking about it again and again, plus 3 digit... ;( Makes me wanna cry, all her hard work saving that much, within just a snap, i ruined, i bloody ruined it!!! Fuck, i swear am feeling depressed her...
Haiz... I dun wanna usually end my post being sad and all, the other thing that i am looking forward is, dear working with me... :) That's making me slightly better, this something that we have never done together before... Am excited!!! See you dearie!!!