Zombie Run (11 January 2014)

Sometimes, its hard to agree to certain things! Or even accept things knowing that its a fact! We tend to lets just say, argue against it! I wonder if i make sense of not... But i think i am, hahas! I am contradicting myself, aren't I!
I feel like as though i am in the wrong, and qucikly have the tendacy to apologise, but after i aplogize, i then realise and start asking myself, " Giri, are you sure, you did something wrong or are you sure you were in the wrong...?" You should never be afraid to be who you actually are with the person you love or like... Or maybe for instance, you know this person very long, or lets just say, you have been togther with this person and now you aren't anymore and lets just say, you're dating that person... I would always show my true side to them... You can never explain certain things until you put yourself in that person's show... Please, i am blogging now not to pin point on anyone or any incidents, its what i feel right now... I don't mean to hurt anyone or mean anything to anyone!

Well, today, i woke up late and was suppose to go work plus training, but i had the run to go to... and yes i went! Starting part was kinda crappy, i gotta admit, i was kinda agitated with the meeting part and all, but slowly things started changing... I felt better and was having fun... Yes, i admit, i was pissed with Bo, yes yes yes... But it was better as it went on... I met Shakthi, a family friend of them, met vicky anneh and his nephew, and Bo's cousins! I was really feeling awkward, yes i know them and all, but i am not really the person whom i will like go straight and start talking... Me shy! Alright, i am just like that, no matter how much you try and all, sometimes you can never change a person if they are just like that! Its possible, but it takes time, it was first time for me today, seeing 6 people all togther in an event! I felt like kinda lonely, but shakthi was there most of the time with me... :) Thanks ma! But, my main reason to go this run was to be with Bo! But, i have to understand the part where she has to balance things between me and her family, especially the part where i don't want to give an impression to the family members that there was something between us....

Bo, remember that time when you told me that, Nandhini knew that we were togther before but right now, there was nothing between us right now... Yes, i wanted to ensure she doesn't have the wrong idea of me... Plus shakthi also asked me when we both were alone in the front when you all were at the back asking, " are you both like togther..." How was i to react? Bo, i know you are trying hard to balance things...

You wouldn't tell me saying that you felt distant among us? Come on d, i was with you, beside you and all, i was kinda mad that i didn't have lonely time with you and all, but i saw you, i was talking to you, i hold your hands awhile, we were sitting togther and saw each other in a weekend, we were in an event called the Zombie Run, this is more than enough for me ma! Really! Rememeber there were times where we did not even had time to see each other, or even talk to one another? Seeing you and talking to is already a big thing BO, knowing you had to be with your family and all, i felt that it was not fair for me to expect much but to accept and be happy that i at least got the chance to see you ma!

I was hearing your family stories and all! I really had a good time hearing them! In fact i enjoyed hearing stories, giggling and smiling... Though i was quiet, well that's me ma! Look ma, i tend to get mad, i also have anger, yes, never should i ever be violent to you, but just think about the entire scene again and over, what was the cause for me to be like that? I am sorry, i shouldn't have been violent to you! I will never justify my action, but besides my sis, you were the next girl i have been violent to bo! With all my other girlfriends, i have never been myself to them, but to you, i am being myself... That i can 100% be sure... If you still doubt it, i don't know what else i can do to prove...

Prithi ( BO ), i love you! Alright, i have like said this a million times and all, I don't give a flying cat, i am saying this again and again... I don't think there is anything else that i can do or tell to show how much i feel for you... I am not gonna exaggerate giving movie dialogues... But just take note of this, no girl can replace you or neither can i imagine any girl in my heart beside you, i can never put another girl in my heart... I don't need to, i don't wish to, i DON'T WANT TO!!!

The run was fine, accept the fact that zombies won't really like zombies, hahas! Plus unexpected weather, it would be more fun if lets just say there were water activites,  and i was expecting a night time run, would be even more freaky and scary, the starting part  before the run, the weather was a killer but than in the end, the ending part turned out to be even colder than i expected! Worse, wet and soggy! It was one kind of experience i should say about today! hehe! Many things that i would not wanna forget... I won't really say that it was a good day that i expected it to be, but i had a good time with the people i was with today! :) I really wish to go more often, but maybe the next time, to be more vocal, now that i have seen them and taken part togther with them... Lets just see how it goes in future! :)