Finally, I have finished my FYP presentation today! Thank god! But, am i suppose to be happy that it has ended or feel a bit upset that i was not really satisfies with my presentation. Sigh!!! I am really praying hard that i could get a good grade for this! SIGH! :( I wishing for the best ah! Though, still i have some unfinished work, i still have my report to edit and also my AES that has to be burned in a CD! Hmmm... Seems little but it could be done that is if i am totally focused! My industrial Attachment Program starts (IAP) starts next week! I am kinda nervous...
First, i not to sure where would my attachment be, hopefully it is near, nearer to cookie also, least i could see her everyday some how! :/
Second, i wonder how the working hours gonna be, and plus the outfit, hoping can wear a bit slack ah! hehe :) Wahhh... Tmrw got work, and the second last day of my FYP, gonna miss my mates though. hahas!
Today, after presentation, went to meet cookie, had teppanyaki with cookie, My gawd! Before eating, i was actually panicking with the fact that b had stomach ache, was feeling faint and all, i really was wondering what can i do? I really managed to stay calm and manage to bring her to eat, in the end, she pay! CAUSE THEY DON'T ACCEPT CREDIT CARD TRANSACTION! CBBBBBBB!
After that, cabbed to woodlands, sweets bought her frappe at Star bucks, after 7-11 coke, i think there is a new addiction i think! I hope its not like the 7-11 coke ah! COOKIE!!! XOXO!
Then walked her to work, from there went back to school, was in time for the briefing and also managed to attend it, super unlucky, today the BME students wasn't able to get their letters, but my supervisor called! Hmmm.... After that, met b at yck, followed her back home, not forgetting this time double chocolate from coffeebean. AIYO! But it was nice la! hehe! B was damn hyper! hehe! I really missed you so much baby!
Wishing you were beside me, i wanna cuddle you like my boaster, wake up and see your face and begin my day, want you be the first face i see everyday! I swear, i can never get sick, as that's the only thing that keeps me smiling!!!! 

Having a bad flu, but feeling much better now, thanks to the flu tablet cookie passed me! hehe! Well, today, woke up at like 10 plus, then went to Saamy food restaurant. Food was just the bomb! Had mysore mutton and fish cutlet, plus prawn, sambal prawn and a bit chicken, i was still so tired, damn sleepy! Plus, i drank lime juice which made me feel a bit worse than before. Once reached home, went to bed to sleep! Slept like for 4 hours, woke up at like 830 plus, showered and ate something, then started my report, while the TV was on, was watching The expendables 2. hehe! :) Awesome blockbuster movie! ACTION PACK! :) Then, was watching some movie, goundamani and prabhu acted, comedy movie in SUN TV! hehe! Tmrw, i still have some things to finish, i planning to be in school at 8 sharp so that i can start on my report and submit it to teacher asap! Now blogging, gonna head to bed now, shit i kinda just yawned biggg... 
COOKIE, shall we sleep soon!!! XOXO !:)

COOKIEEEEEE, first thing i wanna say in my blog today! YOU BETTER NOT GET SICK!!!!

I want you take care of yourself dear! It seems both of us are kinda feeling unwell i guess... I am having flu now, i wonder why suddenly! AIYO... :( Sigh! I wish i could be there by your side taking care of you b! Before anything get any worse or anything... I don't mean to ask you do things which you don't like or anything ma, but its for your own good and also, i would feel better that you would recover quick or anything. 

Well, went off to school early, manage to do few pages of my report today, B was late for work, and so met dearie, and sent her off to work. After that, went back to school, and it started drizzling and all! Wah! I just had it when it rains nowadays so suddenly, especially when i was wearing the slip-on shoes. sigh! I got it kinda wet too! Had Macs for lunch and came back to the lab to continue doing my project. Was suppose to go for a movie, but it seems that there was no timing and all so we cancelled it...  After that, followed b to amk, had tako balls with her, and i guess she had to rush off, so i was not really able to follow her or send her home, so yeah!....Oh b, i wanted to share with you this dear, i was seeing this in the lab... <3

One day b... HEHE! :) Right now, i just wanna cuddle you and hold you, looking in your eyes, and say I LOVE YOU, this instant b! You're the best thing that has ever happened in my life b! I will always love you so much my cookie!!! 

This girl ah!!!! PANNI!!!! I can't stand if she is upset or down! hehe! But at the same time, as much as i am lazy to do it, i don't mind doing it, cause it makes her happy i guess! Well, today went for this MEDTRONICS company and learned a number of things today! Talking about pace makers and how it is being processed and all! It was really cool shit i swear, to think of it, i don't mind working in such a place either, that is if i can ah!!! hehe! Then after that, went for lunch and started with my report today! And yes, i did start my report today okay! hehe! :) Did 19 pages and had to continue further, best part today, i was able to connect my prototype SMD to my previous circuit board! AND NOW I CAN COLLATE the results and add it in my report! Cookie was upset, i wonder if it is the right word to use, but yeah... I am sorry b, i was really doing work, to the extend i did not use phone much b! I am sorry b I tell you now ah b, tmrw, after lunch, i will have a lot of work, might not reply much, okay baby! Sorry d! I was able to literally focus on my work b! And met b after school, SO GLAD TO SEE YOU MY LOVE!!!! MUACKS!!! Bought panni big gulp! I drank it too! hehe! Then went to work, today work also unexpected, suddenly many people, my dinner became my supper, sigh! Now blogging, did some research on my project just now! Need to wake up tmrw and.... Well, hope a productive day is ahead of me! heheh! 

SLEEP TIME NOW BABY!!!! SLEEEEEEEEP!!! I LOVE YOU DE CHELLAM! !:)

I just went for the trip and now I am doing my report, manage to finish like 14 pages only, literally so busy, hoping I can finish things in time, seems that I have to stay up late night today... Sigh! Annoyed with work and all... But seems that cookie is also a bit annoyed, I wonder why? One word replies, but really... Sigh! I no comments la! Really!!! I mean its not fair for me to criticize her, I wonder what she is going through there, and so I guess I shall not disturb her...
Cookie, I really miss you alright! I am sorry, I just have a week left more to my final week, plus seems like my friends have started getting their internship places and all, I still have not received mine, hoping I would get a good place... A bit no mood dear!!! Right now, talking to you, makes me feel better dear, but your replies... I don't really know what's bothering you dear!!! I am so pissed dear, really with the way you reply! :( Hope you are feeling well dear! I am sorry if I didn't meet you today alright! You know I will, but just feel that I have quite a lot of things to do! :(

Didn't realize that i won't be able to see baby today in the morning and so i went to school like at 8! I was like literally early today! And well, as early as i was, i started on my work, and yeah! I had to do additional things to my drawings and dammit, i realized that i didn't send my supervisor my poster when i actually thought i did! hehe!!! And so i sent her my poster and she told me to put in my 3D drawing! She wanted me to put the entire Drawing which must include the retractor, the surgical wire... etc. The drawing that i did, was only about the battery holder which had the battery, that's all... Much work today! And yeah, i did manage to do my work all today! And also, we were like watching videos in the lab...
There was this tribal video that showed saying that, in Africa, boys, at age like 19-21, who are gonna become man, have to undergo this traditon where they have to place their hands inside a glove filled with bullet ants for like 11 hours. SO in order to become a warrior and all, they have to do this 20 times, and bullet ants are not just normal ants, they are 30 times poisonous than a bee stink. You should see the size of the bullet ant! MY GAWD! IT was so creepy... Damn!!!!
SAW COOKIE AFTER THAT! HEHE! :) We both ate prata like some barbarians like that!
One egg, one cheese and also mutton murtabak! Aiyo! We keep eating sia Poor b! She was hungry! Sia! I could not send her home, i am sorry my love!!! :( After that, went back to work and then had to go to work, today work was boring, but went gonna close, like an hour before, it got damn crowded to the extend missed the train, lucky Ferdi leaves at sembavang too! So he send me off in taxi! Now blogging and also talking to baby!!! COOKIE!!! CBB! HEHEH!

I am confused, what's the difference between a... Eh Eh EH! What am i doing? I am not gonna tell here! I keep not realizing that the blog is not private! WTH!

As for today, had NS medical checkup, i had to take my ICG twice cause of my hairy chest! hehe! And also, i managed to finish it quick either... :) YAY! :) But... The stupid young fellow had to inject me, i was hoping the old man could do due to his experience, cause i took from his last year... oh yeah, this was my second time taking so yeah! :) DAMN THAT GUY! AS though he was in a rush to inject me! I wonder why, after that, took a slow bus ride, took 57, passed telok balangah, MEMORIES!!! :/ As in yeah... SIGH! Well, got down at bugis and took 960 to woodlands to meet baby! :) Then, fetched her at burger king, i wonder why, today only i was kinda rough to her, hehe! Like literally, i don't know if she felt it was rough or not, but i felt that i was kinda rough yeah! Then had burger kind for lunch, wrong burger! ARGH!!! THEN.... 

GODZILA!!!!

Movie was nice, cookie enjoyed it too! :) hehe! After that, went to Amk! Was suppose to bring cookie to dessert, but... In the end, i corn ice cream was done. TODAY A LOT OF BIG GULP B!!!! I AM TAKING NOTE OF THIS!!! After sending b to bus stop, i was on my way to work, though i already know i was kinda late, but, NO WORK! HEHE! COOKIE AND I KNOW CAN ALREADY! But all thanks to sunida! WAH! Daring la, she talked to my boss and just made things happen, But, i owe ferdi! REALLY I OWE HIM!!!! Sorry boss! Well, met b again!! YAY! :) At kovan, from there take mrt went to Sunida house, met her grandpa and mother, followed her mother and sunida to makan NASI LEMAK!!! It was just the four of us, honestly, i was more happy that b was with me, i don't often get to have dinner with her so... hehe! :) It was great you were there b, after that, was chatting and all, then left outram, sent b home and now reached home! Just shit! hehe! AND NOW AFTER BLOGGING, i have something important right now, i just wanna finish this and get started, saw something! AARGH!!! MUACKS!!! XOXO! :)

Sigh! Cookie! Why? Why? You yourself know... You do know what my thoughts and intentions ahhh... B, i would never do anything or something against something that you really want, but dear, if its really worth it ma! Okay fine b, you like them, no sorry, you love them... I understand... Yes, its only fair enough for me to give my advise b! I am not your parents b, i don't have the rights to control you, but baby, as a boyfriend, i do care for you and also, i hope you would also do the right thing!!! 
I love you, and please, for a thousand times, have i EVER SAID NO, to anything that you really want dear, name me one, i will admit it and apologize or you wanna punish me, do it b! I dowan you think that i am some guy, picking on things and not giving you freedom when even your parents don't question you, then you will start hating me all b! WHY? DO i need such a thing? For all the things you wanted, i've tried my best to get them if you can't... But why dear? YOU NEVER LET ME SAY OR LET ME TALK FINISH ANYTHING DEAR!!! Just also, you never let me speak, goodnight and that's it! Some good night b! I was so mad the way i am being treated at times d! :( Damn mad!!!
But b, this all... Won't stop me from not loving you b! I SWEAR!!! But, why do such a thing? 
You want to get the watches, get dear, alright? I am not gonna say that you don't save money this that all b! Cause, i myself have wasted money too! But dear, NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU LIKE OR LOVE THEM, ITS ALWAYS BEST TO THINK OF THE OUTCOME OR IF ITS WORTH IT! PLEASE BABY!

I AM SORRY IF I RUIN YOUR NIGHT, HAVE A GOOD SLEEP ALRIGHT! 

Just got a shock of my life, like literally!!!! :( I am not gonna blog about it here, why wanna make it in a way that i am reminding about it! Nahhhh!!! XOXO! :)
Well, I slept like at 3 plus today in the morning, hehe! Was watching movie all, and i woke up today at like 11 plus, just nice for me to go to work... Weather was so cold and what a breezy wind blowing... Best part, my slipper was torn yesterday while i was doing opening... I had to wear the stupid black shoes that looks like a boot with the pants back home yesterday and today to work... The good thing is that i was able to safe time on changing and all, so in that way i was able to open both levels today! Oh yeah, when i opened the shutter, i saw this damn big black moth, omg! I freaked out, first thing i did, i got shocked and i was just looking at it, second, i was trying to find my way around the moth! And yes i did... A bit slow motions! hehe! To think of it, i was kinda epic! :) Thank god, that kitchen staff arrived, first thing i asked him, could you please clear it out!!! I AM SCARED OF IT! It was really big i swear! :( DAMN BIG!!! He kind used a tissue and brought it out, i went out to check, it started flying, i freaked out, i wanted to close the shutter cause it seems like it was flying in, but it went above... What an afternoon to start with a freaky big moth!!!

Today worked till like 5, and went to meet dear, took Mrt to kovan, from there took a bus, went to buy big gulp, i wonder why i bought for her medium when i told her only small i allowed, i really really blame myself for not being harsh with her at times, plus it seemed that i just rained finish and yet a big gulp! Sigh! Well, i bought for her and then, i went to meet cookie along the way, we were sitting at the pavement for like 15-20 minutes... Short but was nice, missed cookie! I was really glad to see her... :)

Cookie holding a baby!!! She looks so young... Not to mention the small little bangs she has! hehe!!! :) Both lookign adorable here ah! HEHE! :)

I am hearing this song dear! SO nice!!!! hehe! I was thinking of you b, hehe! Then suddenly i heard this song, i was like, wah! Nice timing ah! Very nice situation song!!! HEHEHE!!!

Cookie, remember there was a time you asked me what i wanna be in future all, i was like, i dunno ma, i only can think after NS and all... Cookie, if i were to say, that i wanna be a chef, would you laugh at me?

I wonder how or why, i have something for cooking ma! I dunno why, i was actually gonna try out be a part time kitchen staff before heading back to TCC! I was initially looking for a job as a part time kitchen crew, hehe! :) This is something i have never told you, hehe! :) I've always loved cooking dear... I had this thought of taking a degree in masters chef! I know its a crazy thought but, i think i would rather learn cooking then to study maths!!! SERIOUSLY b! Cutting, frying, baking... SO fun dear! Plus its related to be food, i think i wanna be a chef, i wanna take up courses after NS, all sorts of cooking courses and all! I am taking Diploma in biomedical engineering but seems that my interest is some where else b! Its not wrong right ma? Is it?

Ohhh, i guess i have already let you know about the job thingy ma! hahas! Got you a job already dear, now you don't have to worry about not enough money or anything, so that you can do many many online shopping sweets! :) But, have a limit okay dearie!!!

The exact chubby face you still have in your baby image dear!!! See the mouth of yours... Aiyo! You are so cute dearie! :) hehe! Hands all so small and tiny, Awww....

I wonder how old are you in the above image you are dear? Lets say like maybe 15-16, around that range? No matter how much you grow, you always have the child side of yours, goofing around, so adorable... Cutie pie!!! :)

No matter how much times i see this images all over again, it never fails to give a smile in my face, but that doesn't mean that if i miss you or i wanna see your face, i must always look at your images ah dear!!!!! 

I miss you a lot dearie! Hope you are doing fine my cookie! XOXO! :)

The last time i saw you was like on the saturday, usually, i would be able to see you least one day after a day if at most we can't see each other, but it's been like gonna be 3 days already now, and tmrw i wonder if also we can see each other... Sigh! Baby, i am sorry if my schedule for this week is so crappy b! Really! I made the choice to work at this timings all, but b, if we were to have fun in future or anything, sure we need the money b, i really wanna see you and was hoping i can drop by at night to see you, i just i do have some cash in hand for me to be able to come and see you b! I really miss you my cookie!!!! I know to you actually it is not really necessary, but... It is to me ma! :( I miss you greatly b! :(

Shagged!!! SUPER SHAGGED! For the past 3 days, i have been working out, trying to get back in shape... And yes, past 3 days i have been running and working out, especially my ABs and Arms! Today also, lunch time, went for a run, i was suppose to go for gym, but too crowded la! Aiyo! Was suppose to focus on back and arms today! Well, manage to run for like 25 mins, it seems to be improving day by day, i just need to watch my diet and sleep well...

Just came back from work! Now blogging! hehe! Wahh, b really influenced too much by me in the online shopping ah! Aiyo! hehe! I must also influence her in exercising too! Baby, please ah! hehe! YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT RIGHT?! HEHE! Today, was rather a tiring day, cause the fact that i was running during lunch time... baby didn't go work today, so she was at home... Guess what other thing today i found out, Sandya do called highlighted her hair, my god, super typical Indian girl colour i swear, my instagram have!!! As in she my friend in instagram what, so can view her in my friends list! I have no comments! Plus today, FYP, wahhhh, i regret going school today, had to see my supervisor, a lot of corrections to be done... At the same time, i feel like i am contradicting myself cause i also feel glad that i saw her, knowing now where i stand and loads of effort has to be shown by me...

You can never know when someone might just be angry, but sometimes through the text you can tell if that person if angry or not, so i knew cookie was with the "K", aargh! Annoying i swear... So i knew she was mad and she told me she will text later... And yes she did? But wouldn't i be curious to know why were you mad or in a bad mood cookie? You ah! You PMSING ALSO you will tell what b! I was really damn annoyed... I just didn't wanna tell her, cause she was at home the whole day resting and all, i didn't wanna become so naggy and all! Poor b! :( But b, please do tell, you can't expect me to ask right? I might also feel i am asking a lot, but not wrong being curious to know right b? 

SO SLEEPY!!!! Gonna continue later...

COOKIE!!!! hehe! :)
When was the last time i even called baby cookie? Hmm... Practically so long... You know that word cookie reminds me of those times when i use to like keep admiring the small things when cookie did! Hahas! I still remember, every night, i will ensure parents all asleep then i will Skype with cookie, without her knowing, i will keep admiring the things she do! There was once i remember this, this really affected me so much, the first time i saw her crying over skype when i think she was talking about her grandpa, saying she missed him so much! That was the first time i saw her crying, believe it or not, at that point of time, i was starting to like cookie, but just that i was hiding my feelings for her and secretly blogging about her... If it was just a friend, i would ask her to cheer up and all, but when the moment she cried, i really just stoned, i was really upset, wishing i could be there right now, give her my shoulder to cry on... This was my thought, but some what rather, i was still trying to cheer her up, but well... I just felt so weird when i saw her crying... Never i have felt such a way when my other girl friends cried over things but when cookie did... I realized i do have something for her... 

Who would have thought that i would sometimes be a cause to hurt her or ruin her days presently... Sometimes, as much as i wish i could give her so much of happiness and make her laugh or smile always, i fail to do so... Human beings go have to go through ups and downs which also means they also have to face bad times to... But being the cause of it, simply means you're just hurting that person badly... I did! Sometimes, i don't realize how much i do hurt cookie when i am with her even sometimes when i am not with her... 

I used to always Skype with Sunida when she was in china and in Philippines but that was all in a friendly manner, i didn't like have this feeling for her or anything... Honestly, she isn't a girlfriend material to me either! So yeah... After that, i took a break from skype and finally i got a chance again to use it because of cookie! 

How did i come with the name cookie? Oh yeah, she like cookie monster so much... So i was thinking, at that point of time, i don't think she knew anything about my blog... Cause also, while we both were skyping also, at the same time, without her knowing i will blog as well... Like while talking to her, i will just be typing and she will just be talking and all... HEHE! :) When i knew she liked cookie monster so much, i decided to give her a nick name cookie... 
I started already liking her already... But you know, the feeling of you liking the girl and not to know whether to tell her or not is really a pain in the ass you know!!! My gawd, after the Pasir Ris incident where we were at the beach and all... After that, we were still skyping... I swear to god, you know how many times i wanted to ask her this question or tell her this?
"Eh, i just wanted to ask ah? What you think of me?..."
This all i didn't wanna tell cookie, a bit pai seh you know... I didn't tell cookie this till now... hehe! :)
My first thought, if i were to ask her about this, i was afraid that she might think that i might want to hit on her or something... I was trying my best to maintain along the way... I was really trying hard...

How long can i guy keep his feeling away from the girl... Really? I couldn't wait... That's when i felt that i should tell her quick? But also to think of it, the moment when we were at AMK the macs, playground there, there were a couple of times where i actually wanted to tell cookie how i felt...
1. At the macs, outside while sitting down, i wanted to tell her, after glancing around for glove, when we decided to sit at Macs...
2. At the time, when we were playing swing, after playing we were kinda tired and sitting down, side by side... 
3. While walking towards the amk bus stop, along the way, hoping i could voice something out...

You see... Even then i didn't say anything... I remember i felt kinda dizzy and all, so cookie was so nice, she followed me back to amk station, that was another time... At this point, if only i didn't ask cookie to follow me to yck, i bet things might have been different...

Yes she followed....
4. I could have also told her while she was with me in mrt towards yck...
After reaching yck, she waking with me to school, along the way she had to go to orchard...
5. Even while walking towards school, half way, i could have told her...

Screw it, i just follow her to orchard...
This part only... From Yck to Orchard, quite long right!!!! I was just in front of her talking, yet, something came up in my mind, telling... "GIRI, TELL HER!!! DON'T WASTE THIS CHANCE..." this was all in my head, that was when nearing orchard then i opened my mouth and yeah... That's when i told her that i like her... Face to face at orchard mrt station!!! Till now, i can never forget, sitting opposite, face to face... 

"Don't care what she thinks, just tell her how you feel about her, tell her how much she has disturbed you in your mind and heart... You have to sleep peacefully today..."

Trust me, there were days where i could not sleep because of her... Its usual for someone to be in love and at times not sleep because you will never know what if she rejects you nor she does not feel for you... I went through this fears while i was in love with cookie... Those weren't just memories, something beyond...

More to come... XOXO! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH COOKIE!!!

Ever since i reached home after meeting dear, i have been just lying down in bed, in the dark, WITHOUT THE AIR CON switched on... I wonder why, but i feel so warm and niceeee.... HAHAS!!! At the same time i am just perspiring a lot also! hehe! Actually its a good thing, i was actually suppose to go for a run, i was tempted to drink tea and slacked awhile, and then i had dinner... I MUST GO LATER! Watching Dhoom 3 now! At the same time blogging...
Well about today, woke up at like 11 plus, left to Amk to see Dearie, followed her all the way to Clark quay, she had to do threading! hehe! It looked nice after she went threading... :) hehe! XOXO! :) After that, had Burger King for lunch, i was really starving, also I was PMSING, damn it! Showed it on Bo! :( Sorry b! We were talking, more like gossiping as well! hehe! :) My gawd, we both are literally gossiping a lot it seems! hehe! After that followed her to Little india, send her off to meet her parents from there went back home! While lying down, a couple of things i went through that i want to shop for dear! hehe! :P NoT GONNA SAY A WORD ABOUT IT HERE! :) 
While traveling back home in the MRT, i was like listening to all the Dhoom 1, 2 & 3 songs! hahas! I realized there are like 3 versions of Dhoom machala song! LOLS! All are nice though! :) 
Next week... I need to complete quite a number of things in school, as my FYP is gonna end soon, need to save some money as well, i need to book some TTT lessons before taking my RTT! :( ALSO....

TRAINING MODE ON!!!!! I am really fucking hell gonna work out! Dammit! I have been saying saying saying, but no actions! Dammit! I swear i am gonna train!!!! I MUST!!!! 

BACK TO BACK!!!! 2 Movies!!! AWESOME!!!!
Hehe! First, 'The Amazing Spiderman 2' and 'Walk of shame'...
Well, morning, booked appointments for me and bo at hougang polyclinic... hehe! Both also the numbers ah... 

Screw the image above la! i trying my best to put it straight i can't! Argh! Well, as you can see, my number after bo number! HEHE! First time, i wonder if it is something to be proud of not, but such moments like this is kinda something that i won't really would forget, so an image of this, plus bo number is birthday numbers of her number and her brothers! Should have taken 4D! But... I don't know how to take 4D! hehe! :) It was rather a fast consultation! HAHAHS! After that, went to take 72, there was an issue between me and bo! Sometimes, i have to understand the fact of how i should use words and also, knowing how others are trying to make things as nice! But, my fault as to the kind of question i asked! :( To the extend, i had to buy 3 roses for b! hehe! Money didn't matter but at that point, when i gave those flowers to her, it was the smile that she gave... That's what that mattered to me the most! I can say so many things of how i feel about and things i should do and all, but why? What's the point when my actions doesn't show them? Like what bo said, some things, i brought it up myself!!! Sigh! Enough talk! Actions speaks better than just words, like seriously... Well, after that, had teppanyaki, Bo treated! :) It was YUM YUM!!! :) After that....

"THE AMAZING SPIDER-MAN 2 & The walk of shame..."

Well, a long day! Back to back 2 movies, a good lunch, after that, went to Macs, to play TAI TE!!! :) hehehe! You know, i really enjoyed my day with dear today! I wonder if she did? Prolly i think maybe the part where i spoiled it in the morning! Sigh! Its just me, i have to spoil it and i have to make it right! hahas! Honestly, bo really has so much of patience for me! Sigh! You know each time, i will always try my best to make things right, least something i will screw, maybe, i am just too cautious, going with the flow is always the best solution for me, that's what b taught me!!! I wonder if you had a good time dear? Please forgive me if i have hurt you in anyway today! Never meant to hurt your feelings neither have i intended to? I love you so much b! 

You know, when i went to meet dear at her place, there is a song that she dedicated to me...

"Truly Madly Deeply"

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on
A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning, yeah

[chorus:]
I want to stand with you on
a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining
brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the
pleasure and the certainty
That we're surrounded by the
comfort and protection of

The highest powers
In lonely hours
The tears devour you

[chorus]

Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standing right
before you
All that you need will surely come

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

[chorus]

I want to stand with you on a
mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to live like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

This song is really so nice and sweet!!! :( Thank you dearie! Its is really very sweet of you ma! :) baby, has been telling me to blog blog blog, there were times where she doesn't tell me to blog, and i do blog... I feel damn bad, cause, usually its a routine for me to blog, i have to get back on it! Well, yesterday, i was suppose to bring baby to sushi tei, in the end i screwed up and brought her to some other place, it turned out that i have to spend 75 bucks for it, when we could have eaten something cheap! But the good thing is that, she had SALMON SASHIMI! :) hehe! :) Hope you liked it dear, after after school, i went to work and like i was literally sleepy!!! DAMN!!! Reached home at like 4 plus, had a latte glass of beer with ferdi, but it was a bad idea having a beer...

Today, Such a big drama, morning mother annoyed the fuck out of me, Dammit! All i did was went out to watch movie with baby, and in the end, she made a whole big fuss JUST BECAUSE SHE WANTED TO KNOW WHERE I WAS!!!! God dammit! Baby was so sad, and frustrated with the fact that we could have finished watching the movie!!! I was so into the last part, all got screwed!!! I am just agitated with the fact that i upseted b, kinda disappointed her! I am sorry dear, screwed with the sushi and now this, maybe my time isn't right! Just hope things get better soon, i hope i can make it up to you for the disappointing you in many ways! I am sorry sweetheart!!!!