I am trying to the best guy i can be dear, i mean, you yourself agree that no one is perfect dear, but i always try to make myself good in everything dear... Sometimes, to be frank, most of the times, the things i do some how annoys you dear, i dunno why... :( I never raise voice, i always share my opinion, i have never wanted to control you nor hold on to you on anything dear, but yet, why b, why? Why do i at times get scolding and all dear... :( Last night, you know an argument at night would really affect my sleep... I am not blaming you for such ma, please, don't get me wrong, but dear, was there anything wrong i said... I swear i didn't sleep dear, i couldn't sleep... I have always tried my best to make you feel better dear, also try to cheer you up b... You know how much i love you right sweetie, you do know how much i care for you and all right dearie... I sometimes feel worthless dear, i always annoy you? When was the last time we talked things out and like give in and take all dear, when was the last time we do this like this dear... Understand one another, make things easier for one another...

Good morning baby... Good morning Munch, you know how it feels hearing this from you dear, why is it that the person who would makes my day usually used to say such but now... but some other people would say this? I don't really know what has been bothering you dear, i understand the fact that you have been feeling tired and all, plus work also you've got things to do and all...

But dear, i can't really keep things to myself dear, no matter how sad i feel, i would wanna tell people, but i don't wish to share things with other but only you dear, that's why i am blogging it out now, i feel so heavy dear... :( ON the train also, " I am not stopping you, you want you can leave with another girl all... but tell me if you wanna leave...?" B, this still is bothering me dear, no guy would ever wanna hear this dear, really ma! I mean its true, but think about it this way, " Don't you dare leave me understand, you think i am gonna allow some guy just take you is it?" I sign of possessiveness, makes you feel like as though there is someone who loves you a lot and just wouldn't wanna let you go... But dear, if you were to tell, you wanna leave you leave, how would i even feel dear? Have you realized this and all dear? Knowing how much i love you and knowing how much i am willing to go extra mile to do anything for you, would any guy would wanna hear such from the girl he loves and adores so much dear? I can never be angry dear, i can't afford to be mad, that's why feel so down, feeling so sore and hurt dear, sometimes the words you use on me, can be so hurting when you are angry dear, I understand, people say things when they are angry dear, don't worry, i will never say anything about that, but dear, have i ever demanded things from you?!

I want to get things right between us dear, i wanna get things smooth between us, would you please give me a chance to things out to you dear? Or is there anything that you want me to do, want me to change, i will do dear, really? Want me to dress up nicely, want me shave everyday all, i will do dear! Really! Anything so that you will not get annoyed with me or anything dear! Please! I am so sorry if i have said anything to hurt you dear... I didn't even have a proper birthday also ma, i have been feeling so down....

I miss you so much dear, please baby please, whatever i say or do, i have also put my thoughts to it that i want the best for you and not to control you dear! Please dear! I have never thought of controlling you baby! PLEASE UNDERSTAND THIS DEAR! PLEASE!!!!