Its been a long since i have blogged and with the kind request from my dearie, the least i can do is blog. Been ages since i have blogged, I can't really tell the exact reason to why i was not been blogging and all, maybe simply just lazy, sigh...  Well just to briefly update whats been happening in my life so far...

Ended school, meaning no more school for me! :) Waiting for NS next year, so till then i am technically working like mad! WORK WORK WORK! Of course, not forgetting to spend time with dearie as well! hehe! :) And of course, i have finally obtained my CLass 2B License! hehe! So, i will be taking up my cousin bike soon! I can't wait to hit the road! hehe! There were some drama going on, at home, asking me to take Full time job this and that! Sigh! I am really not interested and also i won't be able to spend much time with dearie as well, so I am hoping things go well soon for me! I've planned ahead of what things are to be done as well, as time goes by, slowly, i will put all in sequence of what to do and what is important and all... Makes me feel that i have a huge responsibility in my hands. I am not denying that, but i am just stating the fact with my current status before heading to NS, sigh! 

Several things that i feel i have not been doing...
- Saving up money
- Spending time with dearie
- Starting to go for Driving classes
- EXERCISING...
I could keep going and going, but i have to bare something in mind that things happen for a reason. 

I am missing my love so much, past 2 days seems to be a rough one for both of us, i am actually worried for dearie. She hasn't been herself lately. 2 arguments we had for the past 2 days were just simply upsetting for me, especially when i feel to the extend that she feels she is torturing my and all... Sigh! I really wonder who or what influences her mind with such thoughts. Despite what's happened, there is no reason for me to to stand by her side because after all, she is my girlfriend and i love her so much. I really saw the past 2 days that she was trying to push my away so hard, i really didn't know why, or was it something that i did... Today, i had to admit, i kinda raised my voice and was pissed the fact that she did not want to eat when i told her to, because she no mood to eat and all after what was happening in the morning at her place. Been 2 days since i have seen her and i had to see her in a situation where she was tearing... Not the kind of thing that makes me feel right, i was really worried if everything was okay at home. 

I love you b, you know you could tell me anything you feel, i will never wanna scold you or think such manner dear. I felt that i was not showing you enough attention and not showing you enough love and all dearie! If i made a mistake or i have hurt you badly, please dearie, please forgive me, but don't push me away like saying find a better person or anything or say such like we are over all this ma. It really hurts badly dear, i can't forget dear, the words you used but i WILL NEVER use them against you, because I don't wanna remind you anything or make you feel uneasy dear! I miss you and i am sorry for hurting you in anyway, would you please forgive me???