Evey time when i feel down or depressed, some how hearing to this song, makes me feel some how better! What other reason do i have to be feel down or depressed but this... 

Usually, when people blog, there usually tend to blog about their feelings, some times, when they do not know who to tell about or some how, feel uneasy about telling others, they tend to blog about it, a where to just let them let out how they feel and all! Same here i guess... I am thinking of going away, and not come back till maybe 14 October 2013!!!
Every time, when i am at home, my mother is enough to just make things worse for me... "Why you look so down, sad is it? about who?" SHE ALWAYS THINKS like that... Its painful whenever she tells this! Now i know how cookie felt when her mother said such things to her, always suspecting that she might be seeing me or Whatever.... i shouldn't complain wad, i caused some one's life miserable and this is what i get la! What else can i say, you tell me! 
I dunno how to say or tell how i feel, every single day i am just fighting and fighting... Just feel that before school reopen, something is just gonna hit me big time, i dunno... Feeling horrible each day, dun feel like seeing anyone, talk to anyone... Be with anyone... Angry at myself... So many miss calls each day, mad text messages each day... Wondering where is this gonna lead me... 

Think i will leave today or tomorrow, just wanna be away quick... ;(