Here I am watching my team mates train when I can't train at all. While watching them train, couldn't really focus as I got reminded of myself when I was playing for NYP against TP, the day when moi was watching the game! It's just reminds me la! Still can't forget that day, when I wasn't really suppose to play, but i had to cause I the other left back was injured! Felt the pressure in my heart! I was just terrified, one hand that I wasn't really mentally prepared and on the other when moi was there watching the game. I felt pressure and nervous, I mean every guy would wanna play at their level beat in front of the loved ones, yes, I think I played my best, no really satisfied as I was the cause of the third goal. It was damn embarrassing. I was more concern that what would moi think of me instead of my coach! It doesn't make sense ah! Hahaz! Was it all just memories?! It was something beyond that to me! Moments I treasure till now. No one would understand that...

I just wanna change things, be the better person for you?! Be the guy you wan him to be, be the person who you would love? But I just end up screwing it, I still have faith, I can't just move on ma, you are the reason I play with a better
Mind set and you're the sole motivation, but I just dun give you anything in return, just problems, and not giving you the freedom you wan! Have I been that hatred to you? Do you hate me so much?! ;( I'm sorry. I'm truly sorry.