I just came back home, came back home straight, went to shower, not really shower, just feeling mood less... I honestly, don't feel like eating as well! I dunno why? I am just confused, like having mixed feelings here and there, i feeling like tearing, feeling so heavy... Like so...
With the way i type and i am talking right now, you can just wonder what is wrong with me now... "...We are not together, attached and not even dating... then what's the relationship between us...?" okay, forget everything, forget what I say and all... Let me just ask this question only... "Do you love me?"

Look dear, i know i am putting you in a difficult situation, I feel  that I am not going you any pressure and all, but i feel that whenever i am going with the flow, the questions and results i get from you, sometimes make me wonder what is the reason behind you feeling such a way for me? I really don't know what you are feeling for me and all... I have not asked you nor talked to you about this... I don't really know what you actually want also dear... You can talk to me anything... I may not give you good advise but i can share with you what i feel! But, if its something between us? Who else am i to talk to about than you, cause you're the one i am in love dear...

I don't really know how to put to you in a way, i don't wanna pressure you, i feel things between us so far is going well, times when you have to accept the fact that i can't always be with you... Things like that, you are getting used to it dear! I have not really asked you anything about whom you talk to and all, in fact, have only given my opinion whether you like it or not, other than that, i have leave it to you to decide... Then what else Prithi...

I have always said "I love you", from my bottom of my heart to you dear, till this moment, i have not  thought much of our future together or not, that doesn't really matter right now...
When my friends ask me if we are together, i say somewhat yes, cause i didn't really agree to break up with you or anything... I DID NOT! But not even dating? that made me thing a lot ma! Then what are we doing Prithi! I am sorry if i have some what giving you pressure, but i can't keep things like this to myself and pretend to be someone when i am not... I love you okay. I really don't know what else to say ;( Feeling damn heavy.... Tsk, sigh!