I am counting my days, like literally... Counting down for what? NS!!! 
I don't know why, it has been so much of a burden for me... Why must i serve NS? Honestly, i am feeling afraid... :( 

Heyyyyy Cookie, 
Been ages since i have blogged about you and all, yesterday was just simply amazing that i met you after 3 days, i missed you so much dearie... Really! :( But then today, i wonder why, we end up in a fight... Been thinking about it dear, seems i have not been taking your presence well and seems i have taken you for granted dear... Thinking of those times, where i used to write letters for you, blog about you, surprise you with gifts and flowers... I just feel that i am not how i used to be with you dear... 

Knowing you are tired and sick dear, it is not possible for me to talk to you anything write now dear, because it isn't gonna help sweets... 
You know dear, no matter how much days and times passes, it seems that i can never get sick of being with someone and seeing with someone over over again... That i can say 100% ma! I wonder why and how, i treasure you so much that i am not willing or taking any chances of losing you, but as much as i don't wanna take any chances, some times, i feel that i have not been giving you much attention dear... :( Work, tired... etc, this has all never been an excuse for me dearie, but it seems for the past few days, this has been an excuse for me dear! I don't want this...

I am being a jerk her dear! I wanna show the world that no matter how long i am in a relationship with you, i should never show a day or even a while that i never care for you nor never show love to you. I want to show the world that i will keep showering you love and care passionately. 

Remember when we kissed yesterday dear, i swear, i felt so much of passion in it dear, passion for love! I wonder if it makes sense dear, i loved it so much, missed you greatly dear! Really!!! 

Baby, i love you so much dear, i have never wanna give any burden to you, at times i feel that i not being treated well dear, sorry b! But yet, this doesn't being me down all b, cause it is your way of showing your love to me dear, i understand dear... Remember this dear, i will never EVER take any chances of losing you... I need you in my life dear, without you, it;s just total darkness for me dear! Forgive me for all the bad times you have gone through because of me, i am working real hard to ensure i have all it takes to marry you dear!!!! I love you so much dear!