Well well well, 2 weeks of confinement is over already... Like finally. Within the 2 weeks, many things have been established in army already. Achieved Marksman already, YES! Rifles parade, it was an awesome experienced. I wanted to share this, during the parade, i had goosebumps... The feeling and patriotism to serve our nation, it's just amazing. During the same parade, we also got our formation badge which usually, no other units might have got first and all. I am PROUD to be under the Commando Unit. 'For Honor & Glory'... It just been what i have been saying and having in my thought throughout the 2 weeks in camp. During the time in camp, i have not really been thinking about home, because it kinda my destiny to serve the nation and to adapt to such which i am serving NS. Didn't bother me much about my family members as they too understand that their son has to serve the nation. Mother only seem to be texting almost everyday, inquiring how i have been and all. Sis seemed to be fine and also my father and mother were just doing fine. But, it was my gf that was all in my mind throughout the 2 weeks, just terribly missing her badly. I never expected to really miss her this much. As much as i was so strong thinking that i have to adapt to this life and also, to not worry much about things here and there, but i just could not help but to not stop myself thinking about baby girl. 

How is it that my gf have made such an impact in my life? This 2 weeks just made me realize it strongly. Sigh. It is really amazing how a girl who just came into your life play a big part in your life already... I am really fortunate to have met such a girl in my life. :)

And so, after bookout when to meet dearie straight and i was already feeling unwell, high fever reached to the max once i reached home and my throat was really painful. Spitting phlegm which was yellowish and bloody, sigh it was just painful. :( Nevertheless, the following day, i had to meet up my parents, granny s yeah... So first went to Clementi and then to Pandan Gardens. By the time we reached home was about 11 already i guess. I had so much of good time at Pandan Gardens more the Clementi, Sigh! FAMILY POLITCS!!! Just crazy... As for today, it was a Friday and yeah, i was at home all the while, just sleeping and watching Tv, what more can i do, did some pushups, have to prepare myself for the IPPT that is coming up the following week. Have to really keep myself up to the standard. 

I can just never understand one thing, when someone is down and feeling kinda upset, especially that someone is your loved one, would you like make a bit effort to make that person feel better? Hmm... Maybe in my case, it is a question mark. Sigh, i never really wanted any sort of like , "cheer up, things will be fine and all..." from my friends. Even if my friends tend to cheer me up when i am down, it didn't really like, make an impact to me, but when i would one such saying or statement from my girlfriend, sigh, it seems difficult i guess. Because when i tend to get angry or moody that will annoy or spoil her mood as well... SO that case, i can't really be myself is it? 

I feel upset that today has to be over so fast, came in the morning, 8-11, was sitting down alone, after that, from 11-1, dear was with me, sitting by my side, even then also, she had work to do, was watching movie la, but not long also, and then she going back to class at 1, ends at 2, after that another hour, her father will be here. Guys, just answer me this ah...
Neither of us didn't expect her father to come and fetch her, i do understand its not her fault, but i am fucking upset that she has to leave early today, is it fucking wrong to feel such? IS IT? Please answer this? :(

Life is always unfair at times... At times, you can't really get what you have expected or sometimes even, you are not really granted the wishes you have wished in life... But one thing is for sure, everything happens for a reason and always keep your head up. That's that you have to know and carry out each day, being positive and i mean literally. 

Today is kinda an unusual day. HAHA! Yes, i am kinda 'Laughing', you'll see... :P
Woke up in the morning and went to meet dearie today! So went to hougang. Her first class starts at like 9, and i was pretty sure i was there like at 8 plus, knowing the fact that there might be 70% of higher chance of taking taxi and so, i kinda delayed my time today of leaving the house and reached there just in time when dearie was already at Florence road! I happened to have got my belt back from dad so i thought of wearing something nice today, so yeah! I did wore something nice today i guess, not that i am self praising, that was what my dear told when she looked at me today! Thanks love! XOXO!
And so, we waited like 30 minutes and more and decided to call a cab, thank god we got one, but we were still late! Sigh! So i while waiting, i was watching some movie in the youtube using my phone, it was some tamil movie that was thrilling... Not really finished watching fully, went to get food for dearie and poor baby, she was hungry. and so, i fed her rice and after that she went for her next lesson. And so after school, we both went to Clark Quay so that dearie could get her eyebrows done. And once it was done, we were heading towards botanic gardens. But, while on our way, i have to accept something, i feel it was my fault, i should have shown a bit more responsibility on taking care of our belongings as i was handling them all, i kinda made dearie walk back and all, and she was really very tired. sigh! I am so sorry for my actions love. Please forgive me for being careless. And so we went to botanic gardens and from there we took a cab to Turf City. And finally we found the place. It was our first time going to this place to rent a car. And from there we drove to amk, and from there i went back home and dear went back home. 

Baby and I, we both know that i did not went in details on what happened along the way and more of my feelings and all, i just felt that its something private between us and i do not really wanna go in detailed about it... Just to let you know dear...

I kinda had a bitter experience today while driving by your side ma, but i was so glad that you did. You have no idea how long i was waiting for such a moment and YES, it did happen today. You drove me today my love! I really wanna thank you so much for that dear! Thank you so much my love! It was really a good experience we had had today. I also wanna take this time to seek apology if there was any way i have hurt you or said anything to hurt you my love... I am sorry dear... Just at times, i feel like not really treated like a boyfriend dear. It really hurts me so badly dear, it was because of that, that forced me to go for a run today! I swear i was so tried and wanted to sleep, but my heart felt so heavy dear. Some way i had to alight in the interchange dear? Sigh! I understood the fact that there was buses behind all ma, but i can't really accept such thing dear, i am sorry love! I hope i am not asking much from you love! I just felt so hurt today. If you were to realize, i might have sound a bit cold if you were to realize the way i was texting you love. I ddin't wanna text you dear, honestly, but i missed you so much, and i can't just be like this long either dear. Sigh, i still feel slightly heavy ma, but its alright dear, After all, you're my babygirl!!!

I love you so so so so so much baby... Be patient in handling anything dear, anger is the cause for problems and not the solution to them love... Forgive me for hurting you in any way my love, Have a good rest, take care of your self my love... XOXO! 

Well, lets just say its the new year to 2015, Happy New Year yeah! :) Its the 4th Jan 2015. Today, i just came back from my granny place and i am very glad to see my grandparents, the fact that they seem more glad to see me as well! :) After that, came back home, and then watching Bad Boys II now! :) Hehe! Guessing baby just had her macs SUPPER! hehe! Such a pig, but i can;t simply see her be in hunger so i had to do what i had to do! :) AND YAY! BABY is feeling full now! hehe! :) I am missing my baby badly. 

I am kinda excited the fact that i am gonna meet my precious girl soon! At the same time, I am counting my days of enlistment! More time with my love!!! I AM MISSING BABY SO BAD! SIGH!!!! I love you so much my dearie.

Hey b, i am sorry if i am putting you through in anything because i love you so much and i want to be very sure i am serious and let you know you mean the world to me my love! I really love you so much and despite whatever circumstances i face, i am ready to go through them, no matter how hard or painful it is dearie. Anything for my precious babygirl! Its worth it baby! TO ME! XOXOXO! :)

Right now, i can't tell where i am right now! But its a place where i love to be at... The sweetest thing my baby just did for me is by pressing my legs for me. I know the my feet kinda stink and all, but the fact that my baby just pressed my legs can just clearly show me how loving she is towards me... Sigh! I am so gifted and lucky.

Today, its a Sunday and yeah, morning had to wake up and go out with my family for lunch. Both parents have been complaining saying that i have been spending time with my friends and have just been working and working and working my ass off... Like seriously, Dammit! Firstly, no proper planning. Secondly, Its kinda embarrassing at times you know. You freaking go in a shop to eat then you see the menu and then you just walk out. Worse part, when you enter a shop which just opened and you asked if the kitchen is open. Then what you, you just leave, Why? Because the food is kinda expensive. I did told you'll that it will be expensive and yet you just chose to go in to just see and then you leave. I am also a FNB server as well, it can really get annoying at times i swear! DAMN!!! In the end, we end up going to the food court to have our lunch. From there i just left to work, and today at work, it was damn slack la! REALLY DAMN SLACK! On the bright side, it ended well and here i am right now... :)

Okay that's it for today, i am missing my baby very much and i am going to her already! So see ya soon and take care you'll!!!! :) 
~~~CHEERS~~~

I'm in TP. Right now, this very moment, no one will ever feel how I'm feeling right now. I swear I feel like I was thrown away in the garbage. I don't wanna talk about it. I'm really really so tired, the Journey to school from work, left school to go back, wonder if I really were to go back and now back to school again. JUST TO FIND MY WALLET. "Or rather this shows that we are never meant to be.." I wonder why? :( why, at such a situation I had to hear such, I wasn't told anything, was just left behind... I swear it really hurts. I DowAn to call anyone, talk to anyone or tell people what happened. Because, it's just happened!!! Is it gonna change how I feel? I just can't stop tearing thinking about it. ;( it's sooo hurting. ;(

Days and days are passing by... Sigh! It seems time is just going fast and fast, i have no idea why and all... Feel something is wrong with my body system. :(

- Feeling so lazy nowadays

- Have been failing asleep a lot 

- Have not been exercising

- Feeling so lethargic

- Been feeling ill frequently

ARGH!!!!!!!

My enlistment is next year already and i am feeling so tired. Working working working...

I have a choice not to work, but why am i not making use of it to plan well and i could simply exercise. Sigh!!!

I need to work out, I REALLY NEED TO WORKOUT!!! What should i do to keep myself on the right track? :(

Everytime i plan something, in the end, i get off the track!!! I FUCKING NEED TO TRAIN!!!! 

Okay, today was really some what a weird day! hehe! A good way! :) But before talking about it, I kinda wanna talk about a mistake i did yesterday! Sigh! Sometimes, i share the wrong things i did or so called the mistakes i have committed to remind myself not to do it again and again, though sometimes i fail to prevent it... Sigh! 
Dearie and I were at amk station after work, the fact that i could have asked dear not to call her mother, but instead i did not say a work, and could have brought her to sushi or something else to eat, but i didn't... Plus, there was a moment where i turned and i left to take mrt without knowing that Dear was calling me from behind and i failed to hear it! SIGH! Biggest mistake here! If only, i have heard her, she would not be mad and also, she would not have drank Coke... Mainly mistake was mine! Even a minor mistake that can affect something which might seem small but the outcome in future might be certainly big! Really big! SO therefore, we both slept like in the morning at 4 plus, BOTH OF us! :( 

As for today, the plan was to go bowling and our meet up time was at 11 in the morning yeah! But... hahahs!
I got up at 9, and showered and all, left house at like at 10 and reached Hougang at 11.09 A.M sharp! From there till lets just say 2 plus then only i received text from dearie that she just woke up... Sigh! So by the time she come out of the house and all, was like 330 plus already! So, i kinda waited for like 4 hours like that at her place... Here is the thing, i can just simply wait and wait and wait, but for me to be angry, there isn't any reason, in the end, she is still my girlfriend and i love her so much. I mean yeah, who would wanna wait that long doing nothing and just sitting down... Plus the fact that i was sleeping, like literally, i was so tired, sigh! I don't blame her for being late, because baby had trouble sleeping and she has not been sleeping late and all, but as her part, i hope she understands that i too need some sleep as well dearie, in order for me to sleep well, i want you to sleep well also baby... This is where in a relationship, give and take comes in... Better understanding, mutual respecting to on another's feeling and emotions... :) It might sound as though it does not makes and sense but think deeply, it does! :)

So, from there we went to AMK to have teppanyaki for lunch plus baby wanted to eat teppanyaki and sushi, so i thought of bringing her to Teppanyaki first! :) After that, we took a long bus ride to school, TEMASEK POLY! Home sweet home. Though i don't study there, i spend half the time there! hhahas! Both good and bad times for me! :) We went there for some component thingy in the end, it did not arrive or something, from there we went to Far East Plaza, baby had to meet her granny to get their nails done! And so, i was waiting at KFC there, and had pop corn chicken snacker. hehe! :) So after that, i followed baby back home and from there came back home! :) I had a wonderful time with dearie today, though i wasn't really able to bring her to go for bowling, i manage to spend my day worth with my sweetheart! What can it be more better than to spend some time with you love, and yes i did! :) Thanks dearie! :) THANK YOU! :)

Well, its done... It is confirmed that i will be enlisting on the 6th of Feb next year. Its under SOTAC, special opeations tactics centre. Hmm... Something that i am feeling really sad and upset the fact that there won't be valentines day for me and i won't be with baby for her 20th Birthday... We have talked about this already yet i just feel not right...

Well, now, i am factiming dearie and blogging now. Was at work today. During lunch time, it was just okay okay only. Not much crowd, was mainly just drinks today! :) Si Hong did bar today, i and Asri were all around helping up and down and PK was doing bar upstairs. hahahs!

The day before yesterday, i was working as well, super good sales, but, tiring, after work went to meet dearie at her place at home. Felt that i was tied up at work and all, that i could not even spend much time with dearie. Not by just meeting or anything, i was not even talking to baby as well. Sigh! I am sorry dearie. I miss you badly ma. Sometimes, time isn't by my side dear, but i will make things happen and also i will no matter what, come and see you anytime especially at weird timings. hehe!

Granpa has been admitted in hospital. Sigh. Not really something that i wanted to hear from my dad. Hmm... Went to visit him. He is really getting old, 80 plus already. Sigh! he must keep himself strong. Tmrw, doc will change his pacemaker, which means they will have to cut and remove the pacemaker and replace it with a newer version.

I got hooked up with the song baby intro to me. "Aathangara... " this is the song. Another one is the "Selfie pulla..." song. This is i am hooked on this song. hehe! :) Song is really nice la! hehe!

Oh oh, finally, saw my sis driving. hehe! :) It was a good experience. Sitting behind when my sister is driving the car. My dad was just naggy to her telling her to move her and there all, and do this and do that. I mean yeah i get it that you are trying ot guide her but please use the right tone dad! Sigh! I pitied sister badly. Damn....

So baby is now in the toilet and she left me here. Hmmm.... :) hehehe! Why am i waiting? Why am i waiting? Why am i waiting? Why am i waiting? Why am i waiting? Why am i waiting? Why am i waiting? Why am i waiting? Why am i waiting? Why am i waiting?
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YAY, SHE IS FINALLY BACK!!! FINALLY!!!! Look AT the face of relieve! :)))

I never thought that i might say this but i have a girlfriend who is super adorable and amazing. When was the last time have i ever thought of my girlfriend deeply and think how much i love her and tell her how much she is amazing... Sigh! I never did, i wanna take this opportunity and tell her. :)

She gets moody at times, she craves for things at the weirdest time, she gets so hooked up with her dramas, and piggy keeps drinking coke... This is just her so call flaws i presume. But despite all this, i still find her amazing. Why?

Till now i can never tell or have an answer to that... She has this amazing smile then simply just sweeps me off... I never told her about her cute deep dimples she has whenever she smiles, damn!!! Oh oh, and her eyes, those sharp eyes she has that can never fail to get my attention. And how can she possibly feel she is fat... I wonder if she thinks she is fat or not, but i don't think she is, she is just perfect... A perfect girl with a figure like an number 8. :)

Just look at my baby girl! :) You know she may just get older and older, but she has a heart just like a kid! :) I love this adorable little girl so much! :)
Some times i keep forgetting the fact that she is getting older and more like growing up, but i can't help, i see her like a little girl and i always pamper her, because i love her so much that i just want good things for her and wanna ensure she gets the best things in her life... Sigh!

I can never be any more lucky or gifted to have you in my life and i really promise to always love you and cherish you baby girl! I am sorry if i have hurt you and i am really really sorry if i have did things to make you feel bad or make you even tear baby, please forgive me for all my mistakes in the past love. I love you so much! XOXOXO! :)

Its been a long since i have blogged and with the kind request from my dearie, the least i can do is blog. Been ages since i have blogged, I can't really tell the exact reason to why i was not been blogging and all, maybe simply just lazy, sigh...  Well just to briefly update whats been happening in my life so far...

Ended school, meaning no more school for me! :) Waiting for NS next year, so till then i am technically working like mad! WORK WORK WORK! Of course, not forgetting to spend time with dearie as well! hehe! :) And of course, i have finally obtained my CLass 2B License! hehe! So, i will be taking up my cousin bike soon! I can't wait to hit the road! hehe! There were some drama going on, at home, asking me to take Full time job this and that! Sigh! I am really not interested and also i won't be able to spend much time with dearie as well, so I am hoping things go well soon for me! I've planned ahead of what things are to be done as well, as time goes by, slowly, i will put all in sequence of what to do and what is important and all... Makes me feel that i have a huge responsibility in my hands. I am not denying that, but i am just stating the fact with my current status before heading to NS, sigh! 

Several things that i feel i have not been doing...
- Saving up money
- Spending time with dearie
- Starting to go for Driving classes
- EXERCISING...
I could keep going and going, but i have to bare something in mind that things happen for a reason. 

I am missing my love so much, past 2 days seems to be a rough one for both of us, i am actually worried for dearie. She hasn't been herself lately. 2 arguments we had for the past 2 days were just simply upsetting for me, especially when i feel to the extend that she feels she is torturing my and all... Sigh! I really wonder who or what influences her mind with such thoughts. Despite what's happened, there is no reason for me to to stand by her side because after all, she is my girlfriend and i love her so much. I really saw the past 2 days that she was trying to push my away so hard, i really didn't know why, or was it something that i did... Today, i had to admit, i kinda raised my voice and was pissed the fact that she did not want to eat when i told her to, because she no mood to eat and all after what was happening in the morning at her place. Been 2 days since i have seen her and i had to see her in a situation where she was tearing... Not the kind of thing that makes me feel right, i was really worried if everything was okay at home. 

I love you b, you know you could tell me anything you feel, i will never wanna scold you or think such manner dear. I felt that i was not showing you enough attention and not showing you enough love and all dearie! If i made a mistake or i have hurt you badly, please dearie, please forgive me, but don't push me away like saying find a better person or anything or say such like we are over all this ma. It really hurts badly dear, i can't forget dear, the words you used but i WILL NEVER use them against you, because I don't wanna remind you anything or make you feel uneasy dear! I miss you and i am sorry for hurting you in anyway, would you please forgive me???

Hmm... Let's just say that i am feeling damn sleepy right now and i face-timing my baby while she is shaving her legs, hehe! :P Muacks!!! It was Friday and Saturday that baby and I fought and On Sunday, we were just missed each other so much! Sigh!!! I kinda did something for baby, more like bought something for dearie! Which is in her cupboard right now! hehehe! 3 meaning, I love you.... 6 meaning, i love you and i miss you.... 9 meaning eternal love, together as long as we live... And of course, not forgetting the colours of them... Red, Pink and Dark Pink... Showing sincerity, love and respect, courage and gratitude and appreciation! :) She is so precious to me, that's all i can say right now here... Fights i have been through with her, with or without my faults also, it really shows and tells me how much of love i have for her... Sunday was just an amazing day for both of us... I missed baby so much...
Today, Monday,  I reached home like just say 545 in the morning, by the time i sleep was like 615 plus... Poor baby had gastric, sigh, i was actually a bit of a cause, not knowing what really have to be taken, poor baby vomited twice! :( I manage to wake up like 1145 plus, i was still so tired, was really tired. Went to meet baby, followed her to meet her aunty, cause she had to pass her Ez-link card, and yeah... Some how, i felt i was so close to her today, compared to some other time, after passing the Ez- link, went to CDC, check the dates for baby TP, and then had a drink, at Killeney, while baby had her Curry chicken rice... And we were sharing of our pasts all with each other... It was really nice to share with baby, and of course, baby too... It's usual of me to share and all, so i asked baby to share as well, and yes she did! :) After that went back home... send baby back home first then left home, oh oh oh oh oh oh oh , before meeting akka, we went to eat first, baby had her sushi, while i had chicken rice! :) Waiting to sleep soon, i liked today! XOXO! :)

Some people believe there is a one, 

The one who points your way to the sun.

A person they believe makes them complete

The one who will support when facing defeat

'You are my angel,' my one and only

My forever love, so we'll never be lonely.

You've brought to my life all your love and care

It made me see when I realized how rare . .

It is to meet your angel, or their lifetime one

Through you and my children, whose life has begun.

What you've done, you've ILLUMINATED my soul

It's you and your love that has made me whole.

The feel of your love, your soft touch and caress,

We're tight so close, your heart BEATS in my chest.

All that we have always FELT missing before

Though I love you today, tomorrow it will be more.

Our love is life, we are the strongest TREE

Which will always grow forever, like you and me.

You have opened my heart and held it so dear

You are my angel, and will always keep it near.

You have seen my ups and cared when I was low.

'You are my angel,' I just need you to know.

You ENTERED my life through a ray of sun above 

And when we leave, we will leave together in love

My love for you has become my reason to be

I hope one day you'll find your angel in me.

Its amazing that i have met a girl like you in my life, and i am so lucky to have you all by myself. I can never be any more thankful to god, really!!! I love you so much babygirl! SO much... Thanks for entering and staying in my life b! I never wanna let go of you dear...

Nowadays, i am feeling so tired and lazy... Sigh! I can never know the exact reason to why i feel such way... I got to work, that's all i can say, plus i do sleep late at times, is that the reason why i am feeling such? I really was so determined to go for a run today, like literally... But i end up eating 2 thosai and a prata, what a fat slob i am turning into! Sigh! Well, for today, not really a good day for me i guess. i had to start my day not being able to text babygirl in the morning. We had an argument last night which made her kinda annoyed with me and all, to the extend she told me not to text her and all, usually with this kind of arguments and all, i would not really take it too seriously and would start my day texting her in the morning and all. But... I felt that I didn't wanna start her day by hearing from me in the morning and all yeah... I really made her pissed, that's why i said such. It can never be a good day for me or a good start for me if i fail to text baby in the morning. Today was just a bad start. Well, at work, Ogie was late as usual, i had to open alone both below and top level. Nothing new to me, when i was with kai all, he knows that i am capable of opening both top and below. But this time, i was actually pissed with the fact that, nothing was topped up in the bar. Chocolate sauce for garnish, azuki beans in the bar fridge, lychee garnish, mango coulis, there was no coffee drip, frappe base was no prepared. I wonder if i have missed out any, this kinda of small small things does affect the timing and all, i had to open the outlet late by 10 mins today. This is something major for me, what if the AOM happened to be around and asked why i open late how? Sigh. I was really pissed in the morning. Plus Ogie was suppose to come at 10 in the end he came at 12. Seems he encountered an incident yesterday at Tcc, while carrying the stake of plates to the kitchen, he kinda slipped and fell, where he happened to drop the plates on his feet, which then chipped. They were really really heavy, he was not really walking well today, so yeah, i can't say much either. I felt bad. And then, seems that i kinda banked in the wrong amount of money which Asri did the cashing in last night. It was short of 98 dollars like that. So, he had to write down a report saying that he accept his mistake and all... Plus the entire system in TCC was down today, so i had to copy down all the items to be ordered and manually fax them in order for tmrw items to be shipped. It was so annoying today, i swear. Wifi there also was so screwed. Not really a good day for me, i was feeling so lazy and tired at work as well, the fact that i slept late yesterday as well. Sigh! I was sleepy, like so sleepy. After i eat today once i reach home, i was in bed, like so sleepy and lazy, that's one reason why i was able to take Power nap! Sorry dear for not telling you, i was so sleepy b! :(

Its been long since i have blogged and i thought of just blogging about my recent activities as in to what i am currently doing and all... I have finally completed my final year project and that's it, "what's school..." hahas! Well, finally, a sense of relieve to how i am feeling right now, school free but here actually comes the fear that I am actually waiting for my NS enlistment which is i don't really know when. It always the case of a guy when he completes his studies and has to wait for the NS. Sigh! I am just working part time and spending time with my girlfriend as long as I can. Mother trying to make me work in a company temporarily, something related to my coarse which i have actually no interest on... Sigh! This is how my life goes... Next week i am having my Bike Test... Speaking of it just give me the shivers, sigh! I really have to get my license, not just for me, but there's something that I wish i can do also... I wanna bring my girlfriend in the bike, everywhere. Its a small wish i have, its a pity whenever i see my girlfriend, and she tells me that why i have not passed my bike license and all, i've kinda made her upset too! :( I am sorry love! I will give my best, 100% plus effort, its a promise dearie! XOXO!

Lets just say i am feeling so lazy and tired now... Sigh! Like its unusual for me to feel such a way right now but i dunno la, i dunno how to explain ... piggy is singing out loud, through Skype and i am hearing it hehe! Some random songs she is singing, wahhh, this is what that made me feel kinda annoyed now, she asked me if i need go to school, then i say no, i will go to school once i am done, and all, her response was just singing away, this is what i mean being ignorant. If i were to talk to her about it now, sigh, i will prolly piss her now... So i just say it here, is it wrong to feel such from me... :( Well, some day today, i don't know, went to bank office to collect cheque, after that went to UOB bank to collect cash from it, then went to hougang, got baby macs Milo and then salmon for her to eat, from there went to meet sweets, well, followed her to shop, i got a milk tea, and lets just say we end up arguing, and from there i went to Sasi place, cause i swear i will just go crazy when i feel damn upset! Sigh! So was watching some hindi movie which turned out that the story is super crappy! hahahhahhas! Such a waste of time. From there came back home, had dinner and now webbing with dearie... Nothing much i wanna describe about today yeah! hahahah! Tmrw work!!!! OMG!!! hahahahs! Lunch time some more, i wonder how is it gonna be! hahahs!

Should I?
Should I not...

Suspect is not the word i should use to describe my feeling, its curiosity... And sometimes, i feel that i am not being told many things like how I share with you all the things in life... Maybe it was good that i didn't see it, but now that i have seen it, makes me wonder that i am not ready to be told or not? I don't know, some say obsessed, possessive and all... But i would not wanna be described as these words, I just wanna know if you think i have changed enough to share things that i have not asked you before? Its not about you, its where i stand right now? I want to know where i stand right now, am i still the same person who you think i am since last time? Sigh. I want to ask, but maybe now isn't the right time... I just want to think through myself... But for how long? 

Is it wrong to ask and just clear your doubts, because once the feeling comes, its best to clear it right? Or am i wrong or just thinking too much?

Curiosity Kills, but at the same time, is it wrong to clear your doubts?