Past few days, many things have just happened and all! I don't know why and all, but some how, i was just watching my wife and kids series just only and the thought that one of the series had this song that made me really wanna hear in this series, its kinda an old song, i am gonna put this song now including the lyrics...

It's undeniable

That we should be together

It's unbelievable

How I used to say that I'd fall never

The basis is need to know

If you don't know just how I feel

Then let me show you now that I'm for real

If all things in time

Time will reveal

Yeah...

Chorus:

One - you're like a dream come true

Two - just wanna be with you

Three - Girl it's plain to see

That you're the only one for me

Four - repeat steps one through three

Five - make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done

Then I'll start back at one... Yeah...

So Incredible

The way things work themselves out

And all emotional

Once you know what it's all about, babe

And undesirable

For us to be apart

Never would of made it very far

Cause you know you got the keys to my heart

(Chorus)

One - you're like a dream come true

Two - just wanna be with you

Three - Girl it's plain to see

That you're the only one for me

Four - repeat steps one through three

Five - make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done

Then I'll start back at one...

Say farewell to the dark of night

I see the coming of the sun

I feel like a little child

Whose life has just begun

You came and breathed new life

Into this lonely heart of mine

You threw out the life line

Just in the nick of time...

(Chorus)

One - you're like a dream come true

Two - just wanna be with you

Three - Girl it's plain to see

That you're the only one for me

Four - repeat steps one through three

Five - make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done

Then I'll start back at one...

Its just the fact that in life, many people face different people where they come and go... Some just come and they some how will be there with you throughout, some, in many ways, won't be there throughout despite many things in life. But there is always a person where you would just wanna keep her all to yourself... Hahas! yes, it sounds as though you're being selfish. She makes you special no matter how annoying she can just be, even sometimes you might feel that she does not really appreciate you in few ways, or she just can get into your nerves, hehe! :P 

You just wanna hold her tight, and cuddle her and never wanna let go, times when you can't express it as love or anything else, a feeling that cannot be explained in words or anything else... I sure do sound kinda emotional and in feeling right now... I never had the opportunity to tell or show how much i love her, every time she asks me do you love me or do you miss me? I always answer her yes i do, but in actions sometimes i don't show... But at the same time, i wanna show my love for her, but why? When sometimes she is confused and all? This kinda brings me down! It hurts when the girl you love still feelings confused and all... I only have less than 2 months before my attachment and final year project that i gonna start, with that, i wonder if i would have the same time with her ever... Plus, after what her aunty boyfriend feels about me, i prolly feel that i should not keep in touch with Darshini akka either, afraid that she would be against me either, wonder if she is? I mean why? I love this girl, if i had any thoughts such of making her pregnant and all, i would have done that a long time right? Instead, having a thought that no matter what i going on, i would still TRY MY LEVEL BEST to keep myself cool and go with the flow, and study hard and graduate, serve NS and get a good job and get both my motor and car license and live with the flow... 

It really hurts... SO many things in my mind for the past few days, i had a good break with my aunty birthday celebration in the chalet for the past 3 days, at pasir ris at night, places where i had memories of you, i was just sitting alone and thinking about things over and over again... Trying to keep myself strong and just keep moving... Sometimes i have to think too much because i can't help it, just afraid, sometimes i don't think i am that strong as i look either... Really, i'm not as strong as you think i am, never was...

I am in love with you, in return, i can't expect the same things from you as well... That i have to understand and yes i do, one doesn't love only if the love is reciprocated... It sounds simple, hahas! :P But it isn't... Oh well, i just have to leave it, hey hey... i will always enjoy every moment with you till i don't have any more time to spare for or with you... Whether for the best or worst... >< 

I just came back home, came back home straight, went to shower, not really shower, just feeling mood less... I honestly, don't feel like eating as well! I dunno why? I am just confused, like having mixed feelings here and there, i feeling like tearing, feeling so heavy... Like so...
With the way i type and i am talking right now, you can just wonder what is wrong with me now... "...We are not together, attached and not even dating... then what's the relationship between us...?" okay, forget everything, forget what I say and all... Let me just ask this question only... "Do you love me?"

Look dear, i know i am putting you in a difficult situation, I feel  that I am not going you any pressure and all, but i feel that whenever i am going with the flow, the questions and results i get from you, sometimes make me wonder what is the reason behind you feeling such a way for me? I really don't know what you are feeling for me and all... I have not asked you nor talked to you about this... I don't really know what you actually want also dear... You can talk to me anything... I may not give you good advise but i can share with you what i feel! But, if its something between us? Who else am i to talk to about than you, cause you're the one i am in love dear...

I don't really know how to put to you in a way, i don't wanna pressure you, i feel things between us so far is going well, times when you have to accept the fact that i can't always be with you... Things like that, you are getting used to it dear! I have not really asked you anything about whom you talk to and all, in fact, have only given my opinion whether you like it or not, other than that, i have leave it to you to decide... Then what else Prithi...

I have always said "I love you", from my bottom of my heart to you dear, till this moment, i have not  thought much of our future together or not, that doesn't really matter right now...
When my friends ask me if we are together, i say somewhat yes, cause i didn't really agree to break up with you or anything... I DID NOT! But not even dating? that made me thing a lot ma! Then what are we doing Prithi! I am sorry if i have some what giving you pressure, but i can't keep things like this to myself and pretend to be someone when i am not... I love you okay. I really don't know what else to say ;( Feeling damn heavy.... Tsk, sigh!

Well well well, hahas! Been long since i have blogged about anything and all... All i can say right now, i am happy with how things are back to how it is, i missed things for the past few days, though i have not shown how much i have missed things in action... Soon, i will! Just reached home, like in a few minutes ago and all! Just showered as well, i can't use the lappy much, cause i am having some issues with my internet connection... I am gonna say this much and will update again later in the morning! :)
XOXOXO! :) BOBOOOOO!!!!

Zombie Run (11 January 2014)

Sometimes, its hard to agree to certain things! Or even accept things knowing that its a fact! We tend to lets just say, argue against it! I wonder if i make sense of not... But i think i am, hahas! I am contradicting myself, aren't I!
I feel like as though i am in the wrong, and qucikly have the tendacy to apologise, but after i aplogize, i then realise and start asking myself, " Giri, are you sure, you did something wrong or are you sure you were in the wrong...?" You should never be afraid to be who you actually are with the person you love or like... Or maybe for instance, you know this person very long, or lets just say, you have been togther with this person and now you aren't anymore and lets just say, you're dating that person... I would always show my true side to them... You can never explain certain things until you put yourself in that person's show... Please, i am blogging now not to pin point on anyone or any incidents, its what i feel right now... I don't mean to hurt anyone or mean anything to anyone!

Well, today, i woke up late and was suppose to go work plus training, but i had the run to go to... and yes i went! Starting part was kinda crappy, i gotta admit, i was kinda agitated with the meeting part and all, but slowly things started changing... I felt better and was having fun... Yes, i admit, i was pissed with Bo, yes yes yes... But it was better as it went on... I met Shakthi, a family friend of them, met vicky anneh and his nephew, and Bo's cousins! I was really feeling awkward, yes i know them and all, but i am not really the person whom i will like go straight and start talking... Me shy! Alright, i am just like that, no matter how much you try and all, sometimes you can never change a person if they are just like that! Its possible, but it takes time, it was first time for me today, seeing 6 people all togther in an event! I felt like kinda lonely, but shakthi was there most of the time with me... :) Thanks ma! But, my main reason to go this run was to be with Bo! But, i have to understand the part where she has to balance things between me and her family, especially the part where i don't want to give an impression to the family members that there was something between us....

Bo, remember that time when you told me that, Nandhini knew that we were togther before but right now, there was nothing between us right now... Yes, i wanted to ensure she doesn't have the wrong idea of me... Plus shakthi also asked me when we both were alone in the front when you all were at the back asking, " are you both like togther..." How was i to react? Bo, i know you are trying hard to balance things...

You wouldn't tell me saying that you felt distant among us? Come on d, i was with you, beside you and all, i was kinda mad that i didn't have lonely time with you and all, but i saw you, i was talking to you, i hold your hands awhile, we were sitting togther and saw each other in a weekend, we were in an event called the Zombie Run, this is more than enough for me ma! Really! Rememeber there were times where we did not even had time to see each other, or even talk to one another? Seeing you and talking to is already a big thing BO, knowing you had to be with your family and all, i felt that it was not fair for me to expect much but to accept and be happy that i at least got the chance to see you ma!

I was hearing your family stories and all! I really had a good time hearing them! In fact i enjoyed hearing stories, giggling and smiling... Though i was quiet, well that's me ma! Look ma, i tend to get mad, i also have anger, yes, never should i ever be violent to you, but just think about the entire scene again and over, what was the cause for me to be like that? I am sorry, i shouldn't have been violent to you! I will never justify my action, but besides my sis, you were the next girl i have been violent to bo! With all my other girlfriends, i have never been myself to them, but to you, i am being myself... That i can 100% be sure... If you still doubt it, i don't know what else i can do to prove...

Prithi ( BO ), i love you! Alright, i have like said this a million times and all, I don't give a flying cat, i am saying this again and again... I don't think there is anything else that i can do or tell to show how much i feel for you... I am not gonna exaggerate giving movie dialogues... But just take note of this, no girl can replace you or neither can i imagine any girl in my heart beside you, i can never put another girl in my heart... I don't need to, i don't wish to, i DON'T WANT TO!!!

The run was fine, accept the fact that zombies won't really like zombies, hahas! Plus unexpected weather, it would be more fun if lets just say there were water activites,  and i was expecting a night time run, would be even more freaky and scary, the starting part  before the run, the weather was a killer but than in the end, the ending part turned out to be even colder than i expected! Worse, wet and soggy! It was one kind of experience i should say about today! hehe! Many things that i would not wanna forget... I won't really say that it was a good day that i expected it to be, but i had a good time with the people i was with today! :) I really wish to go more often, but maybe the next time, to be more vocal, now that i have seen them and taken part togther with them... Lets just see how it goes in future! :)