Yesterday, hahas! Tuesday, (30/7/2013)
Well, some what, followed b, to school! IN FACT, was with be the entire day but in the end did not spend much time with her! Met b at her place and then went to school, we were talking in the bus and all! hahas! :) B, upgraded her phone to the new iOS 7, it was really cool, i kinda like the way it looks and all, and so i wanted to upgrade my phone as well, but couldn't at first cause i dummy, didn't update my phone at home at first! Haiz me! LOLS! Some how, had to go back home to collect my lappy and then come back to school! Can't believe i did it, some how, i felt as though i was stupid and desperate, poor b! Her quiz was affected because of me! ;( I AM SO SORRY B!!! After that, followed b to interchange and then from there left! Wasn't what i had in mind, she had to see Darshini akka, her aunt! The think is, i am never used to not sending her back home and leave! God, some how i felt so agitated and more to being upset! :( Sorry to say b! Was already late for training! oh, while coming back to school from my house, bringing lappy, bought chicky rice! But, wasn't really the kind of chicky rice b wanted! Was rushing baby! Sorry de ma! Had gastric, could not go for training! Went back home instead! Slept straight! Some how the day for both of us wasn't really that good! :( Sorry love!!!

Today, (31/7/2013)
Went to school in the morning, had to do one of the project that is yet to be done and due is on this friday! God! hahas! After that, went to TP, met b! She didn't seem good today, touched her, she was feeling feverish, god! She was not really unwell! :( My poor b! She really seemed tired and weak! Mange to watch The gridge, hahahs! Well, not fully yet! hehe! :) Send b back home, not really send the send but till the bus only :( After that, went to school to meet Bing, basket, he dun wanna gym plus others were also missing, all left! So followed him to Katib play soccer! Damn, my shoe tore la! DAMMIT! Played barefoot! Some how, its been nearly months since i have played streetsoccer, the feeling was kinda fun but some how kinda bruised myself! Haiz! Reached home, at like 8 plus! Was doing some presentation work and now blogging! Gonna lights out soon yeah! :))))

Last 2 days have been kinda quiet, i dun really know how my feelings were and all, felt something was missing, lost, wasn't myself, though i went to Dojo on Sunday  usually, i would feel better and all, but somehow, i wasn't :/ 
Didn't really talk to b much, that's why i guess... Gawd, i didn't blame b... Not saying that... Missed her so much... I didn't realize not receiving text from her nor hearing her would affect me this much... Only i know how i felt, haiz... Plus, usually, weekends i tend to work, since i have quite my job, have been at home all the while... Really got to change that, i know maybe i should be studying and all, but... I will try ma! Was so annoyed and frustrated with myself, like for no reason like that, ARGH!!!!
Sunday, called Dylan and Sasi, see if can go gym and all! Pumped weights big time, burned out my chest and triceps i guess! Wahhhh! That was one hell of a work out! Every Sundays gonna make it official that i head down to the Gym every Sundays, Hougang Gym! :) :P hahhas! :)

Well, as for today, Monday (29/7/2013)
Today morning, woke up and went to school with my sis, in the cab of course... School starts at 8, thought of not going, since i have contributed much for the project and all, and plus, i really wanted to see b, so went to hougang! Took 72 to hougang to see b! We were kinda contacting through twitter... Saw b, WAS SO GLAD!!! B, i am so sorry, i swear i really wanted to hug you and kiss you a lot d, i didn't b! I am sorry!!! I REALLY MISSED YOU SO MUCH B! :( Out of all days, why today and suddenly ah? I have no clue b! Felt so empty not talking to you much for the pass 2 days, was just sleeping sleeping sleeping! As i was saying, went to see b and followed her to school and all! While with her, b shared some issues she faced at home and all! I am sorry b! Was with b through out today! Had Macs with b, saw fantastic 4 movie with her... Plus, first time, i had a group of students, Guys, checking my baby out and all! hehe! I gotta admit that baby is really pretty and sexy! hehe! :) Come on la, look at girl also, look a bit decently la, LOOKING SO DESPERATE! CB... I waiting when he will stop and all, bloody hell, keep looking, approached one of the guy and TALKED HUMBLY, some how, i am proud to say, i didn't break baby's promise! hahas! Plus b was kinda angry, sorry about making you mad ma! 
Then went to the library, bought koi as well, b had to meet her aunt and i went back home! I was really irritated and all! FUCKING AGITATED!!! Argh, i was kinda mad that i could not send b back home and all, i understand that her aunt was coming, but the fact that i was angry with time... Why today! Felt as though, i didn't spend much time with you, wasn't satisfied with the time i spend with you today, why much the day end so fast???
Also, about my mother!!! Why must my mother do such a thing to me? i feel as though she insulted my girlfriend alot! That wasn't suppose to be the way mum! :( I dun even feel like talking to you much mother, i dun hate you and all, but just upset that you have to do such a thing! I did tell you she means much to me, and why couldn't you understand how i feel and all! Did you think i was joking about Prithi? Did you thought that it was a flink like with Sammantha and Malini! MOTHER PLEASE, if you have such thoughts, erase it offff! SHE IS NEVER LIKE THEM! Mother please, i am sorry if i have hurt you so much and all! Every mother would want good things for their, i understand that mother! But doing this, wad good are you doing for me? :( Its depressing to hear things from you! Some times, whenever B, talks about you and all, i tend to feel hurt, who would like hear such things about your mother, i always tell myself, b, my mum isn't like that, you will know how nice is she and all! But Mother thanks to you, everything has changed!!! How am i able to show my face to b when you have did such things mother! :( I REALLY HOPE THINGS CHANGE FOR THE BETTER! :( I dun wanna continue further, really hurts to talk about it! I might sound as though i have been overreacting and all! After having a terrible experience with my Ex's parents and all, i really dun wanna encounter such things again! Well, blogging now, texting b as well! Gonna sleep soon i guess! Some day today yeah!!!! :/

 

She is the one, the love of my life... Never would i ever wanna lose her... She means the world to me :(

One of the days, b and I met in the morning, i am sure i didn't expect baby to eat rice in the morning, but some how she did! :) Hahas! We both had chicken rice in the morning! It was awesome yeah! :)

 

Baby, i am guessing the top image fruitella, means something rite! hehe! Yes dear, you bought for me 4 and i only manage to eat just one of it and not even fully, but i think i ate like about 15 of those, and YES, everyone i eat i though of kissing you on various places.... Nah, baby, i dun wanan say it here, i am gonna write that doen in a letter and pass it to you, you read it from there ah ! :)

 

NYP CCA leaders were offered a chance to go and see 3D movie of the wolverine! Some what it was nice but kinda boring yeah! Had a good time with my soccer mates! :)

 

 

It was long since i have been updating my blog, like a week! Many things happened in the week and this is all i could think of... Ups and downs... Tuesday had a game and somewhat i played my best! :) Was with baby the entire week! :) We had times where we qurralled and all! :) I think the worse one this week was on Thursday, when we fought like at changi there and in the bus all, after that went for the movie!

 

I can never leave baby! IDIOT, she knows that as well! Things she does to annoy me! But i know she say things in anger and all, but some how, i still feel hurt la! For that, i can never hate b! Never... She is my baby la! God, i love you so much dear!!! Why on earth must i love you so much! hahhas! My chellam baby! Take care baby! Exams are around the corner! Dun stress and all, alright?! You can do this dear! More to come! Will write you letters as well love! XOXOXOXO :)

Wednesday (17 July 2013)

Well, yesterday (Tuesday), training was so terrible and damn, i was so shagged, OMG! I know how i felt yeah! I had breathing diffculties during the night! :( Morning, had to wake up to go to school at 8 a.m. in the morning! I swear, i was half asleep still! Body all damn achy...School was suppose to end at like 3 but some how it ended early! :) hehe! WENT OFF TO SEE B AT TP... :) But, some how my day, with her had to end up badly, we kinda quarel to the extend where baby just left me! I was at the wrong, but not having the courtesy to apologise makes it even worse! :( She left me but did not go back home early... Saw her tweet, knew she was away, didnt wanna make things diffcult for moi! Some how, i walked from her school all the way till Eunos bus stop there! I texted her brothe, checking if she was at home safe and all, but there was no reply from him at that moment! Was really worried, like it or not, i went to her place there!  At that time, though it was risky and all, ensuring that she was at home is all that matter to me at that time, saw her shoes from the 4th floor, was glad, went nearer to her house, didnt wanna make things any more bad for b, though couldn't manage to see her :( Went back home, i already had a rough training session the day before, imagine me walking that long and all, once i reached home! Had thosai for dinner and straight away sleep! I just had to sleep, cause the next day i had NAPHA TEST...

Thursday (18 July 2013)

NAPHA TEST & BABY'S BTT!!!

 

 

Weather was really cold in the morning...It rained heavily last night... It was really damn cold, can't believe i had to do napha test at this time :( Some how i have to do it, didnt receive any wishes from b, knowing that she might still be angry... :( I just did it and my results:

 

 GOLD!!!!!!! :)

 

After that, went to meet b at CDC, her driving place there, i just met her there straight, she intially didnt wanna meet and all, but i wanted to see her badly, so just went there straight knowing she have BTT... Panni, having test, forget to bring her driving book, hehe! Muacks!

And her results...

 

BABY PASSED HER BTT :)))) XOXOXO ><

 

She passed her BTT! :) Yay! After that, went to see marina! I some how still wasn't in a good state, i was really tired and can't accept the fact that i still have training to go... Went off to see her, i was just wondering that it might take awhile and all, but somehow it took kinda long and plus, i didnt tell b that i wanted to spend some time with her alone and all! Haiz... Another bad ending! This time, it was really kinda bad! :( I was really lost with the words she tell me and all, hurt big time! Honestly, anyone in my shoes would feel shitty and all, worse, youre having training! I really didnt wanna go, but she just had to tell me this, "If you loved me, you will attend training...", Dammit, i hate it when she used that on me, BBBBBBBBB!!!!

I went, training was very bad for me, honestly, i could not focus on the the game and training, everything doing wrongly, mind wasn't on the training, but it was somewhere else

:( Came back late, really weak!!! B called! <3 Was so happy... But was still tired, went to bad early....

 

 

Friday (19 July 2013)

 

Went to attend morning lab :) B, had chem test to do... went to meet b early! Plan was to go to CDC and get B's PDL! SHE GOT IT!!! hehe! :) After that went to crash Marina lecture, and had a good time i guess, me with baby and Marina! She have made the right choice! Thats all i can say here! Between me and b! :P hahas! After that, followed marina all the way till her place and from there we took bus and sent b home and from there i went to see the girl's game! NYP lost! haiz... Came back home like at 1030 plus and had dinner at school mac, now blogging and skyping with b! :) I really enjoyed the friday! :) Oh Oh, After CDC, we actually went to B place there to have bubble tea, b bought half chocalate and peanut butter! It was damn nice :) YUM YUM!!! I bought the chicken burger! I loved it! :) After that only, we went to NYP to crash Marina Lecture!

 

BABY... Some how, i loved the day i had with you today! The moment i wanna just highlight to you was that, though marina was with us and all, i some how didnt feel alone compared to the day before yesterday moi! I dunno why am i saying this and all! Thanks b! I felt that you were always with me though another person or group is around, not that you have not done it moi! But this is how i wanna feel whenever if you wanna meet your friend and all! I dunno if it is right or wrong what i said moi! Just wanted to share with this to you baby! :) Thanks for an aweome friday baby!! REALLY!!! IT WAS REALLY SMOOTH AND AWESOME, Muacks! XOXOXOXOXOX :) I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!

 



 



 

 

 



Well, today, morning, went to meet b! Morning already chaotic, hehe! I am sorry baby!!! :( Some how, went well! :) I was dressed up like a beggar today! hehe! Lucky no image! :D Went to maken KFC with b! Morning breakfast, panni la she, only eat the waffle! hahas! After that followed b all the way to school! It was really sweet of her to write me a letter, thanks b! After that, she was suppose to meet her friend, in the end didn't, she had to go back home! I had to go training! WORE THE NEW BOOTS TODAY! Dammit, will take an image soon yeah! :) Now, blogging and skyping with b at the same time! Training today was tiring i swear!

Baby, looked nice today! hehe! :) <3

A small song dedication to you love!!!

Hey baby, i know writing letter to you would make you feel happier but i dun think i have the time to write now to you by the time you come from class plus, its a bit nicer here to pass you the message... :)

Read the letter dear, you have no idea how much it means to me, i am so sorry b, for saying such a thing like ottraning with one letter you give, B, i never meant to say that sweets! I know you well moi, i have never expected things back, plus i am more of a giver, of course, some times, i also would like to receive letters from you and all, but its really alright baby! :) Your unconditional love is what i want dear and i have more than that! No many things to say and share with you more... Time with you can never get enough being with you! You mean the world to me moi, really, its not coming from my mind, but its coming from the bottom of my heart love! I mean it! Some times, i do provoke you and all, sorry de chellam! You being yourself is what i want dear! :) Not that you are not... Thanks for the letter my dearest baby! Really, i am really touched with what you wrote for me...

Its just the beginning of everything moi... More to come dear, What ever it is moi, i will never EVER let go of you sweetheart! Times being with you are just so precious that i can never have the right words to describe it dear! :) Simply amazing having you in my life, Yes dear, i agree, i may never know what might happen in the future dear, BUT...
I am very sure i will do whatever it takes to have the future I WANT... 

Sometimes, i hurt you... Always, but i have never hated you moi!!! I've never stopped loving you and it will always grow and grow... I really love you so much baby! I would never wanna lose you in my life moi! Its like i am losing another world of mine which means so much to me... Thanks for everything b! A simple thank you can never be enough moi...

PRITHI.M.NAIR, DESPITE ALL WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH, WHETHER GOOD OR BAD TIMES, WOULD YOU FORGIVE ME AND ACCEPT ME AS PART OF YOUR LIFE? I PROMISE TO TRY MY LEVEL BEST TO ALWAYS SHOWER YOU WITH UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND TO BE THERE FOR YOU WHETHER IS IT GOOD OR BAD TIMES. WOULD YOU BE WILLING TO HOLD MY HANDS AND NEVER LET GO OF ME, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS? WILL YOU CONTINUE YOU LOVING ME BABY? WILL YOU BE THERE WITH ME, AS MY BABY?

1. YES?
2. NO?

I swear i look hidious now! OMG!!! NINJA... hahas! Before that...
Today, woke up early, had to go dojo with parents, so went adn left the house like at 7 plus, then from 10 onwards, went to hospital cause SISTER GETTING DISCHARGED TODAY!!!! :) Its about time, she leaves the hospital! Omg, I know how it feels like staying at home, in the room, like some rotten vegetable! She has to go through it :( I swear, when i broke my ankle, she was there for me more than my parents did! Cause they were working, now its time for me to return the favour back... Once reached home, was talking to B! Poor thing, she have a lot of projects to do and all, i was watching some movies la!

Wanted to update you this B, i know you will read it, plus you seem busy and stressed moi, so i say here! My dad was kinda looking through my sis phone and all la, then he saw my wads app image! You should know wad image i put i guess...  AN IMAGE OF US! He say and then ask my sis, this is the girl your brother is with la? Then she was like Yes dad! She told me he looked as though he is fine with it! He didn't ask me anything also! AND ALSO, DAD TALKED TO ME DE!!!! OMG, he is talking to me now ma!!!!!

Skyping with b now hehe! :))))))

 

 

Painful as it looks, i swear that hurts big time :( Poor SIS!!!

Few images to describe my day! Some day I guess :/ the second one wasn't today, relax, I just saw it today, not related to today but... 

Why must I hurt you do badly?! 

Why must I hit your feelings do hard?!

Why can't I understand your feelings?! 

Why... ;(

Sometimes, it's difficult, sometimes it can be endured but at times can't! I meant issues that you can't solve! 

I've never knew how important a proper good bye to your loved ones could be! There was a time where I had an example to share! My mum was on her way to work, well I was as usual sleeping in the morning, this was when I was staying at Clementi! Hahas! She told me to do look after the house and ensure the house was clean and all! But I didn't bother listening, just hack it and sleeping! I've this habit of not hearing anything when I was in a deep sleep! Plus, usually at that time, I would always stand at the door and wave at her before she goes to work! It's always been a habit at that pint of time, well that day I didn't!! I woke up as though something wasn't right! Felt something was fishy! My mother then called and told me to not go anyway and felt as though something wasn't right, but I didn't listen! I went to play soccer at the street soccer court! My friend and that time, Samantha was with me! That's where I broke my ankle... 

My mother then came and crying to me saying, I was lucky and all, and what if something worse could have happen that could have be fatal for me!!! In a way, I ha a second birth, cause I nearly lost my life. I wonder If it was fate or luck.... Till now, I've wondered...

You may may never know wad might happen to your loved ones, recently, my sis getting her leg broken as well... 

Some things just can't be avoided but you may may never know if you'll see that person again, or end up seeing them in their worse states which can be unbearable. 

I talking about goodbyes and all when I end up hurting baby! Baby, I'm so sorry for hurting you dear! Just wanna say, not as though you dun know and all moi, everytime I spend time with you, I always pray that time should go slower or at least possible, spend as much time with you moi! Cause I may never know the next day if I can be with you nor see you. I know your situation dear. I understand moi. And also, how goodbye is so important to me dear! I may sound as though I'm repeating dear! Please beat with me love! I dun really care who sees and all, unless like your cousin or anyone who might complain to your family, other than that, I dun give a shit! I'm deeply sorry for the way I left yesterday b! ;( my intentions was different moi, not due to my stupidity dear. Please love! Please forgive me dear!!!! Please.... 

Part 2...
Sometimes, it difficult to please your loved ones, i understand b! I know how you felt, but at that point of time, you were kinda lost dear! Please correct me if i am wrong! I didnt say i also never lost and all, but dear, you got to learn how to be calm first sweetheart! The entire night, didnt say anything much, just said bye and goodnight! Haiz... :(
Today morning, woke up, B, was still kinda mad! Somehow, i dunno how come ahhhh, she changed become normal la! hehe! BBBBBBB!!! YOU AH! Panni!
B, went to Malaysia with her aunty and i went to visit my sis! I was so fucking relieved to that fact that i met her, but it was as though i was seeing myself when i used to be in the cast and had my ankle surgery done! :(
Well, after that, WENT TO SEE B! :)))) XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO :) I went for the game afetr that to RP, NYP girls lost to RP girls 5-1~
Some how, it was kinda rushy la! hahas! I know dear, i just had to say it b! I understand dear! I hurt b by not really giving her a proper good bye, :( It was unbearable when she had to compare that with the part where i slapt her for... B, dun wanna say here!

Baby, i am sorry dear, i dun wanna repeat things here as you should have already know, wad i was trying to say just now dear! But honestly, never in my life i wanna hurt you b! I have always tried my best to make things better and easy and most importanly, comfortable for you b! You unwell, i try my best to get medicine, make you feel better b! Even if it means to go to another place to collect it! I wont bear to see you in pain or anything moi, but i wont deliberetly wanna give you pain or hurt you in any way love! Why would i wanna do that b? I told myself that i will always try my best to make sure you are always happy, whenever you see me, some how, give you the best time you have ever had and wanna ensure i end the day for you well! Thats what i have always in mind moi! But somehow i just ene up screwing it somehow, but no intentionally dear!

I love you b! I NEVER mean to hurt you in any way b! Please forgive me b!!!!

Yesterday, hahahas! Ok! I'll try to remember yeah! Heheh! It's a Thursday, morning, went to meet b and pass her breakfast! Hehe! Did for her sandwich with egg, tomato, cucumber, a bit p black pepper And of course cheese! :))) hehe! With a little bit of butter spread! Hahahas! She liked it! Yay! :) after that, had to attend my 2 hour lecture. Damn Sian la! Just for 2 hours, go for the lecture! Yes I went, in the end, was only sitting down for like 10 minutes, was with Sasi first cause he wanted me to follow him print things then we loiter around school and then with baby! :))) after class, was sitting down at school with b! At south canteen! :) But.... 

Every guy who has a girlfriend would fear when his girlfriend gets his mens!!! I DID! 

Baby got menses!!!!!! OMG. ;( 

For like 2 hours plus, we were just sitting down, I fed b some food, should have taken picture of it. It was awesome! Hahahas! Fried chicken and of course black pepper chicken! :))) B was in pain! Managed to get her deep heat, got it from Raymond! Hehe! The lie I had to say just to get the cream ah! Aiyooo. Hehehe! It some how made b feel better I guess! After that headed to hougang! Should have gone to macs to get the minion but no more! So fast! LOLs sent baby home and headed to training! Was kinda late for soccer! But intense la!!! Was so mad, dunno why all! Tackles flying here and there, got my ankle twisted at the same time hurt someone as well! Hehehe! Ass hole ah I. :)

Was so tired and reached home another story happened.... Later will update it! Hehe! 

END OF PART 1!!! 

Baby, enjoying her breakfast I did! Haiz, :) the feeling when your loved ones give, the satisfying feel can never be compared to anything else!!! Hope you enjoyed it baby! XOXOXO :)

A sneak peek!!!! :)))

Baby and I went to watch movie on the 9 July 2013!!! Monsters university! Our 3rd movie watching together in cinema! 

First time was when we starting to know each other, in fact our first outing was watching movie, RESIDENT EVIL!!! Second one was the BEAUTIFUL CREATURES! And now this! Monsters university! Hehe! More to come yeah! :))))

Well well, yesterday, on the 10 July 2013...
Hey hey! :) hahas! I had to go to school in the morning and then only realised that i was having a test, not just a normal test but something like a letter writing test! hahahs! EPIC SHIT! Morning already, kinda agitated B! hehe! Sorry baby! :o She wanted to take MC, so yeah... But she end up really, not really that well! But god dammit, she spend only like 18 dollars for like MC and 4 medicine when i spent like 40 dollars for one god damn MC paper and dunno how many medicine! I could have saved at least 20 bucks! hehe! :) HEYYYYY, Its true that i could have saved yeah! After that, went to my house... LONG STORY, dun wanna say here la! Only between me and B! hehe! I gotta say, that i was really at fault, i knew and yet i had to do something stupid, which really does not make any sense! Damn it! What is the point saying when i am not doing or meaning it in action! Sorry baby! The part, JALSA... I understand moi! That too... I am really glad you told me what you think and felt b, seriously, thanks b! Some how, blogging about this, would some how, remind me about the things i should and shouldn't do b!
After leaving house part only la.... GAWD... It some hows resembles a circuit where, it is patched up and some how fuses, meaning to say, circuit breaks and then suddenly, it can work, like some how, the circuit started working again! hahahs! USING CIRCUITS AS AN EXAMPLE! HAHAS! :) Well, after B, left near my blk, i couldn't help it, i was practically following her, all the way, saw b walking pass the traffic light, near the bus stop, i was in the car parks there. After she crossed the road, i had to go in the blks and all, somehow, i am so capable of doing spy work! hehe! But dunno who all was looking at me la! hahhas! I was actually wondering where B was gonna go, i was guessing, she might wanna cross the traffic light but instead she walked towards the right, to the bus stop! I all the way following la! hehe! Once she sat at the bus stop, i was sitting behind her only, hehe! She called to pass her the medicine and check if got paper, wahhhh piang, i ran all the way back home and came back to the same place, then she say wanna take some paper or wad, when near the playground there and pretend as though i was walking towards the blk, i saw her, didn't wanna give eye contact, I never could! :( She passed me her SIM card and then continued, I SWEAR I THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS OVER, couldn't help it, i still followed her, was sitting at the blk behind her, aiyoooo, she texting i replying and all! hehe! I so pity baby, she wasn't well, the worse part was, even though i was so near her and yet i could not do anything to make her feel better, :( I was there for like an hour plus, roughly! She then still can watch movie la! panni!!!! Went to buy things for her, in the end, didn't eat much either! hehe! Went to makan chicken rice after that, swear, damn shiok la! YUM, After that, B, followed me go see sis to CGH! Could not bare to watch sis! A ROD INSIDE HER LEG!!! GOD!!!
After that, companied b back home and of course, not forgetting the bubble tea! :) hehe!

During the bus ride, there were things we talked about and all, but there was a question that b asked, and now also she asked? its something like "Why did you choose to date me, you sure you wanna spend your life with me, I am difficult to handle da?" Questions like this...

• B, you're not like all the girls i have dated!
• You're different, I like you straightforward, thats the best think i admire from you, though at times, it can be hurting for me!
• You know your pirorites, somehow, you made me think of my pirorites as well
• You made me realise how important your future is
• How you look, whether you're hot or not, that all i dun care moi, you should know my taste after rating several girls whom you ask to rate... hehe :)
• You're firm and strict moi, somehow, that is important in life and also, for me as well! You being firm and strict somehow can make me think and know which is important and all...

I hope i make sense moi, if not please ask me b! Prithi, i have not regreted being with you moi! Really, to be frank, i have wondered why do i have to get scoldings and all! This is what i have at most thought moi, these were the times where i was angry and all, but it was all just anger moi! Truly and deeply, i can't stop loving nor leave you moi! No matter how much you push me away, i will still come back to you, some how! You have made a difference in my life moi! You have no idea how important you are in my life! So, please stop thinking that i can get over you and all and also, dun you dare compare yourself with other girls moi! YOU ARE NOT LIKE THEM!!!! Time flies moi, but being with you, i just wish time can just go slightly slower! Oh wait, i actually want it go faster, waiting when i can legally get engaged and all! Sorry b, i dunno if i am thinking a lot and all, but i have confirmed you as my future wife b! No worries, i am taking this slow but there is no change in my decision!!! I am looking forward to a life with you b! In fact, i am actually kinda exicted! :) I always love you moi, no matter wad! :( I love you prithi baby!!!!

Sometimes have you ever wondered that whatever things you say that hurts someone it can never be removed or erased somehow. Till now, I've never felt Sian of the feeling like, haiz, yet again, nevermind, will get through with it somehow, relax, I've never thought like that! I've always been cautious of apologising especially to b whether if I've hurt her or not or whether am I in the wrong or not. People tell me, indirectly, do you deserve this kind of things or not! But I just neglect or fuck care them, cause in the end, I'm the one who is living in my own shoes not them! I am sorry b! I can't tell you how much I love you to the extent where, honestly, I've never regretted things b. why should I love you so much b! Why?  Hahahas! A question that I can never have an answer! 

THERE'S NEVER AN ANSWER FOR THAT MOI! 

All I can say right now is I am damn shagged b. I told you I will give you a clue and yes I will give! Will update later once I'm awake b! I promise! A sneak peak dear! 

Hehe! It's not really finished yet moi! Just a few more things! And it's done b! I will try my best to finish it b! Sorry baby! :( I sleeping now b! Goodnight love! 

:)

Happy Birthday me! ha has! :)
Well, yesterday was my birthday and i am blogging now! ha has! 
2 days back, had futbol sala event where i had to stay oer in school and settle certain things! Damn, that was fucking tiring and i swear i had to go through  a lot of scolding and shit from Raymond and even UMA! DAMN her la! ARGH!!! I JUST GET IRRITATED SEEING HER THESE DAYS! Anyway, on that day, i kinda fought with B! I dun wanna talk about it, but somehow it makes me feel am i that desperate! I AM NOT B! PLS! I might seem as though i am happy and all, but what you told me really makes me upset moi! I dun wanna hurt you or remind you by talking about that B! I know usually, whatever you say you dun mean it when you are angry and all! BUT, Really hurt moi :( Bought you something and doing something for you! Its a surprise B! :) I hope you will like it and it is still in process! Was at home the whole day, in fact, i was doing it! :) hehe! :) 
Well, today, 8th July, hehe! Am in school now, using B's lappy! before that, yesterday was movie marathon la! Watching many movies back to back, one more harry potter movie left, was watching fast furious 6, and G.I Joe retaliation! 
As i was saying, now blogging and at the same time, i am watching Men In Black 3, plus ethir neechal! I dunno how, all watching half way! 
SIS IS IN HOSPITAL! OMG, it had to happen on my birthday :( Sway la B! Feeling damn upset, i cant imagine my sis going through a operation right now! OMG! I pray she gets well soon and i hope the operation goes well! GOD PLS HELP MY SIS GO THROUGH THIS OPERATION WELL!! PLEASEEEEE!!!!

Glad to see baby today! Missed you a lot sweetheart!!! Muacks! XOXOXO!