You were so lovely today b! Omg, its still in my eyes, you were just so pretty today dear! Nice, top and bottom, nice bag, you were just.... amazing b! :) Its really nice to see you like this b, you've its just still in my eyes of how the way you looked today dear... Just had to spoil your day i guess... 
My poor dear? I am so sorry dear, i wasn't in a good state last night de, i swear, if i see you message all, i would have come online dear! Omg, i feel so damn bad that i wasn't able to reply you moi! I am sorry dear! I was suppose to be there to make you feel better not make things worse for you love! ;( I just can't be forgiven for what i have done to you moi! Made you so call suffer all alone last night, the time when you needed me, i wasn't there instead i let you suffer... You twitter message, facebook message... call to my sis... As i am typing, i am feeling sorry and feeling upset for leaving you behind alone dear... I am sorry dear, the only time, when i could somehow make things right, i screwed it... I dunno how to say or tell you how much i feel and sorry i am for causing you so much trouble ma, i've just mentally  disturbed you so much moi, :( Damn, i deserved to be punished big i guess... Well, already am, doubt you might wanna talk to me for the next few days, its alright dear, you deserve some time alone, without any trouble, i just feel that you will be probably be better off without me for the few days, who knows maybe longer... Just saying b, cause i have hurt you that much... There is a certain limit where a girl can take a hit and all, you've taken too much pain and hit because of me dear... Really, I just couldn't get mad at you today, though you weren't talking to me and all properly, how the hell is it for me to get angry for you being like that to me, i understand moi! You've gone through a lot moi, really! I just wish i could be by your side and make things good for you, but by today, looking at the way you were talking to me and all, i understand moi! Its alright ma! I was glad to see you, Was so near you, yet felt so far... What else can i do, feel upset, then cry, this is what i know wad moi! What else i know? Its me, something within me, a stupid ridiculous side of me...  Haiz... 

Today, went to meet b in the morning, followed her to school, she did her paper, so called company her back home, from there left to bishan stadium to watch the game, home united vs young lions! Guess who came along, malini  -_-

I was really shocked she was there, idiot, sasi didn't even tell me, if not, i would not have gone la! Really, lucky Pravin and the younger brother was there all the way... But really, sasi told me malini is his best friend, you sure or not dei? Would you just go and hug your best friend, like just put your arms around when she is just watching the match? Put your hand on the other side, poke her, here and there? Be so touchy to your best friend? Why da? Dei, please, she is my ex, i understand...

First understand me da...
1. Past is past, she is just my ex, but dei, please, knowing she is a girl who i use to date, how can you be so touchy to her in front of me da... You dun realize that i am there or do you even feel anything for me dei? Imagine you broke up with uma and i was like her close friend and touchy touchy and all, how would you feel da? Its not the jealous feeling da, its the thoughts that you use to be dating the girl and your best friend is trying for her now... I feel disgusted dei...

2. Do you know whats is true love da? You still can think of uma and talk of being with her and all when you doing this kind of thing da? Why da maccha :(

3. Damn you malini, after the shit you did to me, hurting me so much... HOw can you even talk to me or be so casual seeing me? I didn't wanna ruin the friend/relationship between you and sasi, i kept my mouth shut...

4. Maccha, you did so many things for me da, you aren't just a friend da, you are like my brother to me, but why can't you think awhile maccha? Yes, i know i myself dun think at times before doing anything, My girl, Prithi.M.Nair has all the rights to tell me that, not you da... You dun have the rights da maccha... Though yes you have helped me so much, but recently i have not been telling you things cause there isn't a need to and i dun wan you to be involved in my issues da!

5. FOR THE LAST TIME, IT IS NOT BECAUSE OF YOU THAT ME AND PRITHI GOT TOGETHER ALRIGHT, I BELIEVE IN FAITH AND ITS FAITH PLEASE, NOT YOU DA :(

Both of you were just disgusting, even pravin agreed to it, "how can he like do this to your ex la..." he asking me this sasi, your blood brother... :( I dunno da! Thanks for everything da! A good lesson da! Why am i even allow to get take this kind of shit all...

If i were to not exist, maybe, many souls would be better off without me! I dun need to get hurt nor be a burden to anyone, simply useless la, exam do like shit, bike also fail, friends not really reliable, the only thing that makes me happy and smile is being with my Prithi, but that also i am blowing it... Hmm, some day la! Gonna leave with it la! Felt as though i lost everything, i think sooner or later, soccer also gonna kenna something big.... Hopeless la I, no good for nothing one...

What have i achieved or made something right??? Doubt there is an answer to this... ;(

I saw you, wearing red embro shirt and short, wearing your black specs, charging your iphone in your lappy, think, akka beside you, having your lecture note on your lap and your lappy on the chair or something! Feeling happy now, just wanna sleep straight... Tortured you a lot, won't happen, you deserve better... All the best for your exams moi! I can flunk but you can't flunk like me, you won't ma! Now that i am away, you won't have trouble ma! Tortured you a lot moi! Will pass your charger to Marina! I really dun wanna give you trouble, or be a distraction! I know how much it means to you! Study hard ma! You can do it, please, dun get freaked i suddenly just came to see you and all! I can't explain certain things de! The feeling, the urge, to just wanna see you! You probably would feel disgusted looking at me as well...

28/8/2013 ( Wednesday )

Happy Birthday my dear sis! :)

Hmmm, Wednesday... LAST DAY of examination today! hehe! :) yay! :) Didn't sleep the today morning all, haiz... Tired big time la! Did much revision and all, then went to the paper, but somehow, i was kinda sleeping during my paper la! WTF! So tried, room so cold some more! Omg!!! Went blank suddenly la! Walao... After paper, went to SSDC straight la! Booked road plus circuit revision together, one after another... All ended like 6 plus la! hahas! Plus, after paper, some fight with b! :( Didn't feel rite! plus raining la! The feeling riding a bike in the rain ah! I dunno if to say shiok, well it is la but i just felt that i was lucky not to get into an accident la! I kinda skidded, so slippery, got carried away some more! haiz... Was really confident la, went on and on, without any much mistakes... :( was really tired la! 

Hey dear, this is kinda weird but just wanna say that I'm on my way to SSDC now! You're probably asleep and feelibg tired, wanted to hear from you before my test but I dun think its possible for you to be awake. I didn't do well for the terser day test, I hope to do well today, some how, I won't let you down dear! I love you so much b, didn't really been fair to you, not knowing you've got issues at home and plus our problems! That shouldn't be the way dear! I'm sorry I didn't tell you about my sis birthday as well, to be honest, I kinda forget myself as well :/ can you imagine me forgetting her birthday! :( such a shame of myself b! Sorry for not updating you! Alright dear, will text you or let you know after my SSDC traffics police test! Love you always b. 

Monday ( 26/8/2013)

It the second paper for me, which is electronics yeah! Some what the paper was fine la! hahas! Morning, the initial plan was to go and do my PDL and then go for my paper and after my paper was to meet b! hahas! But, morning went to meet b, followed her to school in the morning, cause she had a paper at 9 a.m., so after her paper, she followed me back to my school there, hehe! Some how, we both were so tired la, the day before, both of us were awake the whole day la! Like the whole night la! hahas! STUDYING... :) So after my paper, went to SSDC, b followed me to do my PDL, after that, went to amk, to lepak! hehe! :) We end up doing, SPONGEBOB, hehe! It really turned out well and nice la! I dun really know what you call it, but for a first time like me, i some how managed to do it well! hehe! :) Send her home after that, and in the end, i didn't go for my circuit revision! TOO TIRED LA! Really, went back home to sleep... IF i not mistaken, B also KO hehe! :P

Tuesday (27/8/2013)

Second day of the week la, hahaas! :P B, KO the previous night, it was hard to discus with her the plans for the following day, so... I had to see my friend, Adrian, cause there were some problems i had with my Biosignaling, not some, the entire subject was a problem to me! But B did not want to follow, she gave some stupid excuse saying, uncomfortable, sorry to say ah dear, bare with me, i was freaking mad, why can't you follow your BF to study with someone else, who has no choice but to see his friend in order to teach him? We kinda quarreled, and after like few hours, things went fine, went to meet b at AMK hub, i was so hungry and went to eat chicken rice la, b, accompanied me! hehe! After that, went to AMK library, was there awhile, was suppose to study, but not really did much of studying la! hehe! From there, sent b to interchange, and i could not send her home as i was late for my bike practical lesson... I had to take Taxi once i reach admiralty  was really gonna be late la! I was happy that things went well for me during the circuit... After that, i was damn shagged la, went home and worse part, still have to study for my signalling paper, how shitty can it be...

To be continued...

I can't... Really can't, why must you affect me so much? Why must I love you so much?! Oh Gawd, just wanna fucking hug you tight and apologize to you?! Will you forgive me?! Prithi, I'm sorry. ;( I love you so much deeply. I'll always love you no matter what! Sincerely and truly dear. 

Dear blog,

I'm all alone now, no friends, no parents, nothing! I dunno what to feel and how to think?? Feel like a dead body, like always! With no brains, a devil in disguise to ruin people's lives, a mother fucker who doesn't learn... Sitting at the staircase, thinking of what to do! Of course, not near my place, hougang Ave 2, :/

Lost love, lost everything. I dun even have the feeling that there is paper tmrw, why am I like this?  Why?! Questions with no answers, I guess, I'm just meant to ruin people life, I think its a fact. Beginning to realise the mistake, my very first mistake, believing in love... Guess I was wrong, completely... I just wanna be outside where I feel like being alone, of course, surely gonna cry, after all, I'm a pussy... I'm surely not gonna go back home at all, brought my bag with clothes even, wanna be on my own... Just me, how I wish... I was just able to... I dunno la. Had enough giving others problems! 

Am right here, what am I to do?

It's really sweet when you receive a letter or mail from your loved ones, like out of nowhere, reading that makes you feel so... A feeling that cannot be explained just in words, a sensational feeling, i had that feeling last night after the staff game... Letter of love :) 

It was very thoughtful and sweet of b to send a mail to me, i not gonna describe much about the mail she sent me, all i know its so pleasant to read it from you dear! Now i know how is it like when you receive letters from me to you ah pig... :) Felt it dear! :) hahas! 

Well, today, was suppose to go to SSDC to do my PDL and yet again, i did not wake up, so went to meet Bing regarding the F1 job! In the end it was kinda screwed la, 200 or more applicants and imagine just 20 will get it! Kenzie and Sasi were there too! Well, didn't stay long, went to burger king to have lunch! Then kenzie left, we 3 guys, didn't know what to do, we were contemplating whether to watch movie or go Sasi place, in the end we went to Sasi place la! We watching 'Dictatorship', funny lame movie la! hahas! Me and Bing, left there like 8 plus only hehe! :) Went to meet mother at NTUC near my place and home now, blogging! hehe! Some day just passed... 

Friday (23/8/2013)

HEHE! :) Plan was to meet b at 8 at amk, But it turned out that, she could not leave her house early cause her mother was still at home, poor b! I mean, how can blame b for that! hahas! So kinda waited for 2 hours, was studying okay, hehe! :) Waited near the street soccer court the place there and was studying while waiting for b! She then came, hehe! 

Was with her for like an hour then went to amk hub to makan! We both were contemplating whether to eat teppanyaki or chicken rice! IN the end, we had chicken rice, i swear it was damn nice! B and i enjoyed it so much! Omg! :) To me, it was worth the money! :)  AFTER THAT, MOVIE hehe! :) 

Oops, the image is upside down hehe, aiya can see la! hehe! The movie wasn't that bad la! 'The Internship', it was worth watching i guess! hehe! :) Well after the movie, went to buy crispy chicken and then followed b, sent her home and then left to home as well! Missed b so much la, i swear, she was so tired, i didn't wanna let her go, wanted to hold her and not let go yet, hahahas! Went back home then got ready and went to the staff game, won the game, but was a good experience playing with the veteran! Not that easy la! hahas! 

Read something that means so much and just blew me away... 

To be continued...

Thursday (22/8/2013)

I woke up with B calling me through viber, i immediately jumped off my bed and replied, in fact was waiting for her reply so that i can leave house and meet her, so rushed in the morning, and went to Florence road bus stop where usually i take bus 854 back home from hougang. Waited, saw b, we took 25 near marina place, and along the way, we had cold war, a really bad cold war between us... :( To the extend, b, threw me away, i had to call Marina, felt as though she needed someone, besides me to be there to make her feel better... She had paper on that day some more, but i just had no choice to call marina at that point of time, haiz... Sorry Marina! We she came and we were talking, but i couldn't bare to stay there longer as b wasn't really bothered i guess. I told marina all the best and also told her wad i felt to say, i just left the place! I understood what B was going through, I really did! But to the extent where throwing away me... I just did not feel it was fair baby! :( We were in this together love, the day i hold your hands, i told myself i would not let go of you no matter wad and will face things with you together as one dear... Then why b.. Why wanna just throw me away.. :(

Went off to meet Vaisha, had to talk to someone, B, called, she apologized and i was really intending to meet b straight away, felt so hurt and didn't wanna see dear, i am sorry to say this dear! PLease forgive me, cried much and was hurt badly, just continued to meet vaisha! Was with him for like 3 hours plus, was talking, more about bike and me taking my test... After that, went to meet b, was not that long that i met her, i was so glad to see her! Really! Went back home after that... 

Wednesday (21/8/2013)

Went to school with b in the morning! Met b at her place, hougang there! :) Followed her to school! :) She had to submit some work la! hehe! :) Plus, i have a paper on that day! Design device paper! ;) Theory paper la! Dammit! Haiz, well, after the paper, went to amk! Was slacking near the playground near Marina place! hehe! :) She went to Marina place and from there i went to school to take my paper! Okay la, some how the paper was alright... Well, after the paper, went to meet b! She was with Marina, so i called vaisha come along, i kidna not like this feel where marina is there and i meeting B! hehe! Might as well, call vaisha along! He fetched me from school then we went to meet them! hehe! We were suppose to go to the indian muslim shop la! But... that's when things started getting bitter...

Baby, received a call from her mother and we both kinda panicked, especially b... She no choice to cab home, i was still around the area, mother called me, and told me wad happened, i still panicked, that's when B''s mother called me as well, gawd, she spoke on the phone, i dun wanna say what she was talking and all la, but all i know, i disappointed B mother so much...! I am so sorry aunty! Aunty, i may not be the guy you might wan as a son in law or something, i am just saying aunty, but i can assure you that i can promise to keep your daughter always happy, and ensure she is always loved and cherished by me...! I wish i could just tell you how i feel about your daughter aunty, but you were so mad  plus on what my mother said as well, i apologize on behalf of my mother aunty, please... I love your daughter so much aunty, there is no words to describe how much i love her! I am not the guy you think i am aunty, i sincerely love her and YES, i DO CARE FOR HER WELL-BEING... 

I think it was the first time, MArina and Vaisha  saw me crying... Hiaz! You know what really made me even more upset, when b hang up the call and told me thanks a lot, something like that... I swear i broke big time... Went back home straight, accepting that again, i have failed to keep something or someone precious to me by my side and accepting the fact that my love for Prithi just shattered... Couldn't sleep the entire night... Praying and hoping, something might happen, least something... :(

Second day of the week....
Tuesday :) hehe! As planned, was suppose to go to SSDC to get my PDL done, but in the end, did not, woke up late... It was raining in the morning la! Was suppose to study also, in the end didn't la! Haiz, So, took the bus in the morning and went to meet Adrian, he taught me certain things la! Manage to absorb quite! B, on the other hand, woke up late as well, panni! :) Met b at the tampanies Interchange, went to tampanies mall, had Long john silvers for lunch! After that headed to school... While sitting, b was soldering and manage to get it done! yay! :) Then, report... Some argument we had la, i end up crying all... Can't help the fact that, i can't just leave b, always love her so much... Her friend was there, starting to get annoyed by her, dunno wad she did also, but getting annoyed seeing her, she has this drug addict face la! Sorry b, no offence! Then went to Marina house there, played ball at the street soccer court! Awesome la... :) Well, b dad called her, b got shocked, not really a happy farewell, poor b, can't blame her! Sorry love! Had some phone issues, and came back home, used lappy, yet to study, was watching singam 2 with my sis beside me as well, she kinda saw wad i was replying to b and all, and gave me the smile,! :) B was also watchign it as well! :) Skyping with B now, gonna sleep soon! :) hehe!

Everything about today, it was simply amazing... Everything just went so well, i loved so much about today, i dunno wad to start out with... :/ 

Well, today ( Monday ), i would say it is a good start for the week, as planned, went to meet b in the morning! Went to see her at like 8 plus, Hehe! We were suppose to meet Marina and Vaisha for breakfast at AMK! But, was thinking why wanna so call 'spoil' their meeting, so thought of not meeting la, hahas! Made b, walk around hougang just to eat prata! hehe! B..... How can you not know about hougang ah... Aiyo baby! I was kidding ah...

Baby, i wonder what pose is it, hehe! :P

So after having breakfast, went to meet them, took 25 straight to AMK hub! For wad ah.... WATCH THE CONJURING AGAIN! hehe! OMG, my second time and B's third time, hahas! Somewhat we had good fun la, the four of us, Vaisha was scared la, not to mention me as well though i was watching the movie again.. After that, headed to NEX, went to this some place la, had black pepper chicken with rice, vaisha had the same thing as me as well, Marina had Curry chicken with rice i think and Baby had fish and chip! Baby wasted food la... Panni! Next time dun naughty ah... :) Muacks!  Was there la, through out talking and all, we had so much laughing and all la, B, really had fun la! I was observing! :) Did not really see her this happy and all! :) Was so glad she had a good day, we managed to clear certain things out and also shared how we proposed and all, Vaisha and Marina as well! :) Was really fun la! But could not bear to leave la, instead went to marina place there to slack, hahas! Awhile yeah, but marina had to study and Vaisha had to do some cleaning! Rode Vaisha bike, it was AWESOMEEEEEEE! :) Feeling so confident now, really! :) Just wanna pass and ride baby around... Hang in there love...!  They went off, we were still slacking and all...
Baby, i dun wanna say about the things we did and all here la, one word... 'Jal**' hehe! :) All I know one thing, CANNOT CONTROL LA.. hahas! Sent b back home and then went home, both of us were tired la! SWEAR IT WAS A GOOD DAY THOUGH IT WAS TIRING...

SO FUN AND ENJOYING TODAY! :) Loved it! :) I hope you had fun as well love! XOXO! :)

This entire week, i spend all my time with B! It was simply just amazing... Yes there were some crucial parts where we fought and all, but nothing stopped me from loving her! Once thing for sure, i really had a good time with b! Its is strange that, giving her company in school while doing well is also something that means so much to me... Some guys usually would feel bored and all, but i didn't. I was kinda upset to the fact where b told me i was boring her Mon-Wed, like after she come from class, she would see me sleeping or watching movie and all...

B, if you wait for me, what else would you do, i no friends in TP, you have friends in NYP, if you wait for me, least you got friend to see, do i have? NOOO! 
You dun tell me you won't watch movie... and you still tell me this ah b! I dun usually take it hard all this b, but whenever i make mistake, you would just get angry, whenever i think of that all ah, i always wanna just tell things you know b, but the outcome.... Either end up in fight or not talking at all, i dun think it is nice dear! hehe! :) Gonna miss school days with you dear! Now exams coming, focus on your exams baby! Keep yourself healthy and sleep early also la dear! hehe! :)

Friday (16/8/2013)

Last day of the week, doing my usual routine... hahas! Gonna miss things here, will elaborate later. Well, in the morning, woke up like at 6 plus, went to meet b in the morning, thank god, mum did food, hahas! Brought food for b, hehe! :) Met her, kinda made a mistake calling her in the morning, which made a big fuss in her house, sorry dear! It was gonna be a rough day for b, accounts test, computer program project to be handed in and also medical electronics report to be submitted. Went to TP with b,  did accounts test first! Then she rushed off to chem lab! While waiting, did some research on the report, and did for b some work! hehe! PROUD OF MYSELF AH! hehe! B's friend did some food...

Beef stir fried rice with kimchi, hmmm... Something different la! Her friend is really nice enough to do this for her.. :) Well after she came from the lab, we went to watch...

Yes, CHENNAI EXPRESS... It was nice and damn funny la! hehe! :) I dun mind watching it again! :) I kinda like the love part between Khan and Deepika, it was really nice and romantic, the favorite part was when he carries her up the temple! While watching, think b, suddenly like not happy la, maybe cause her friend did not help her sign up for the camp... DUN ASK ME AFTER THAT HOW I FELT! I swear i was fucking pissed, everything going well, and the way she work was wahhh... I KNOW YOU GOT A LOT OF WORK MOI! Least say dear, not like just work, imagine if i dun follow you behind how? Confirm you pissed rite? I saw the way you grabbed your phone too sweets, I was observing, i just kept quiet...

Well, once reached b, started on her work, well, sunida also came :) Accompanied us and all... Once she left, followed b, to show the computer program code... hahahs! :) Did fine! hehe! Then, accompanied b awhile in school, fed her the food i brought then followed her back, unfortunately, could not follow her back home, continued my bus ride and went back home! 

It was really a nice day to say la today... :) 

Its Wednesday ( 14/8/2013), Well, i actually dun wanna blog about today la, cause not really a good actually to talk about, but just gonna update certain things only yeah! Well, went to meet b, in the morning, b was looking lovely, with the dress she was wearing, My love! :) Everything  was just alright, went to Polyclinic, and took the number, had to wait long, so we actually planned to go to the hougang library, went there, it was closed... FROM THEN ONLY BAD TIME STARTED!!! Plus, I told be that i was hungry as well, B, i am sorry that i didn't eat, cause, you see, you didn't wanna eat and plus, simple snacks like curry puffs would be enough for me sweets! Baby, whether you hungry or not, i always want us to eat together one! If i hungry and you're not, its alright dear, you dun need to force yourself to eat, but the thing is i would eat something light ma! Then later when you hungry then i will eat the main course, that is how it works love! I believe the hungry thingy kinda triggered you too! Went to buy curry puff but yet no mood to eat, was stoning outside with my eyes closed, b was there! After i open my eyes, she left! Oh, she also was having her tummy pain :( It is not that easy to find remedies for b at that point of time, plus, i think she had mood swing! But i still dun get the part, why you were mad actually love? Were you irritated about the food thingy? I hope to clarify with you sweets? Its kinda bothering me love! :( I shouldn't have made you work from the blk to hougang mall, but i did not expect that the library was closed b... Well things got bad after that, fought, ran around playing hide and seek in the blk, vulgarities here and there, we were in a way, sparing... Hands going over here and there. Haiz... Well, kinda agitated b, in the clinic to the extend i got a tight slap! Trust me, that was hard... Getting slapped is not that hurt me, cause i mean, my girlfriend, she has all the rights to slap me, of course, but slapping me in front of others is wad hurt me even badly, honestly, i really started tearing on that spot, felt i was humiliated for no reason... Baby, i am not blogging all this to pin point anything love! Please forgive me if i am hurting you b, just wanna update things that happened and remind myself the things that i should have and not have done b! Then, she asked her bag, gave her and went off! Went to meet Dylan, lucky he was at home plus my phone was dying! Went to take the ball back and keep it in B house, that was scary, i swear... Gosh! hahas! Then, Sunida called, she said she took cab, so i asked her come directly to hougang! I really wanted to talk to someone and all, well in the end she was telling her issues and all! Hahas! Its been 3 years since we met, and things went well! :) Then, brought her to TP, but b was not there, felt bad making her go around here and there! sorry sunida! Well once, i send her home, i called marina, and yes she told b was with her, called vaisha and asked if can meet and go meet them together! Worse part was, i had to cry to Marina! Wonder what she was thinking about me? That's kinda embarrassing  Why i must cry all ah? But today, i really got hurt a lot la, still feeling upset on how today went... Met vaisha, and went to near her place, was talking to him along while walking there! I was really scared to see b, i was afraid that she might hit me or say things like i am disgusted to even see you... Cause i was really violent to b! I really couldn't control my emotions, felt at that point of time, i was not treated fairly, crying and talking nicely and yet the response i get... I AM SO SORRY BABY!!! But b, hugged me, I WAS SOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!! I was so happy and glad she came from behind and hugged, well she didn't really straight away and all, she just appeared and i was like, " omg, i am so gonna die now... i swear i was thinking what am i gonna get it from her this time..." Hahas! I am not ashamed to be afraid of my girlfriend, i am proud to say that! She is the only one besides my mother who have all the rights in my life!!!! Well, then it turned out well, went on a double date, to some muslim stall and ate! :) then went back home! Sent b back home and then went back home! 

I am sorry about today love, neither of us had a good day, sorry for hurting you badly love! Really! Please forgive me love? Dun push me away baby! Can't bear the pain not having you with my or by my side? I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY!!!

Today, woke up at like 7 plus, but slept yesterday like at 3 plus i think! hehe! Watching movie plus waiting for b to go to sleep as well! Pig ah b! hehe! :) Was kinda late to show up la, cause, followed sis in the cab, but was nice enough to drop me opposite katib so that i can take bus to b place! hehe! Sis is really sweet la! B, you should know what i mean, dun wanna elaborate here much! :) Well, Then went to school, before that, bought milk tea! as usual! hehe! Once reached, so call was watching x-men today! Wanted to study but dunno wad to study! Was actually planning to go on a double date with Vaisha and Marina, but they could not make it, haiz! hehe! So went went to watch Conjuring with b! 

SCARY SHIT!!! Have not felt this way, but i enjoyed baby being by my side, then sent her home! Ohhh, fed her good food tooo! Good job giri! Thanks giri :)

hehe!

Sunday ( 11/8/2013)

What a day, god! Was fighting with b, the day before yesterday all the way till like late afternoon with b! Before that, went to dojo in the morning, and after that went back home to collect my things to go meet dylan! We were suppose to train la! Do some kicking and all, so yeah, we went to school! NYP! :( But, my mind was all about b! Haiz! Damn... B was really bothered, she was so stress, she kinda threw me away... ;( Hearing this, i swear i broke out! Dylan saw me tearing, while waiting for him at YCK mrt, i was tearing while talking to Vaisha as well! Tears just come so easily for me when i get hurt so much la! I hate myself for that! hahas! :P Why must i be so sensitive, but why can't i? Something so important to me, going away or pushing me away, it hurts wad...
So, went to play with dylan, more like practice with him and all! But still, Could not! My shots all, went some where! Felt as though, i have been unfair to a guy who happen to not really give me much problems! Confronted him with Dylan at hougang stadium, knowing that it was against my principal, but i still went! Really felt that it was a need to... And i did!!! Felt much better! :/ IN A WAY... After that, went to gym... Then slacked awhile with Dylan and then went back home...! Some day la, honestly, wonder how b suffered or anything? My poor love! 

Monday (12/8/2013)

Went to meet b, in the morning! I was so happy to see her, but morning, i tell you ah! For a minute... I really wanted to get mad and throw things one side, but WHY MUST I LOVE YOU SO MUCH B... Will talk about that later, went to school with b, then had chicken rice and yeah... A DRAMA PUT By Me and B, director, producer, script writer, everything all is by us, in fact the drama is still on going.... SO PLEASE STAY TUNED...
Was playing with b ball, and yes baby, was kinda irritating me as usual! She just loves doing it, hahahs! MY LOVE MY LOVE! YOU AH.... Sent her home, but was not really a farewell i wanted... ;( Kinda disappointed! I was glad that B, opened things to and told me about wad was bothering and all! Thanks love!

I dunno why, sometimes, i just feel that b, somehow tries to push me away... I am so sorry to say this love... Just listen to what i have to say sweets, i am very sure, we can work things out if there are any issues b! I might not be a good adviser or anything, but i will do whatever it takes to ensure it works out well b! I love you so much b! I SWEAR YOU ARE NOT LIKE THE GIRLS I HAVE DATED!!! HATED WHEN YOU SAY THAT I CAN MOVE ON LIKE HOW I DID WITH OTHERS? DID YOU SEE WHAT I WHEN THROUGH? No what baby??? Hurts a lot b, dun push me away love! I am sure sooner or later, we won't be able to spend much time being with one another, i dunno how you might be without me and all, everyday when i wake till i close my eyes to sleep, thoughts are always about you love, no matter what i do too b! Please dun take my love for you for granted or anything b... I am not saying you do, i dunno what other words to use moi! I feel that i am forcing you to love me b!!! I dun wanna force you love me sweets... :( Without you, cannot b, nothing can be right for me b, am not even myself... Life without you isn't complete dear! ;( I swear i am kinda tearing while blogging this b! :( Wonder why i am telling you this, but the thing you said in the bus is what that bothered me much b! NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, I WILL ALWAYS BE BY YOUR SIDE LOVE!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH B!!!! ;(

10/8/2013 ( Saturday )

Its a Saturday! :) hahas! Woke up at like 9 plus. Dad bought breakfast prata, I whack only, an egg and 2 plain Hahahs! After that went back to sleep! Hahas! Damn tired and sleepy la! Haiz. Was practically at home the whole day la! Missed b so much! Third day, not seen her, Haiz! B, I'm sorry if I'm doing stupid things and all b, but I didn't expect you get mad like this moi! Small things all getting angry so much! Why dear?? Is like you get so agitated even talking to me, what wrong I did moi! I'm dun ask things or anything moi! Is it wrong to ask for love dear,? ;( didn't sleep all b' not at all! I end up stoning in the hall alone! What is it so wrong that I did to receive such thing dear?! I won't agree to the part where you tend to hurt me and all, cause I like tend to so wrong things?! But b, I dun think I did anything wrong b?? I text you nicely with love all, I dun even like scold you or anything these days?! I always talk to you nicely, shower you with much love and all, but in return I dun ask anything much moi, but the least you can dun really hurt me much wad b?! I know I guy b, I also have feelings and emotions dear! I dun have a heart that's strong moi! Im wick I know dear! Call me what you want b. please baby! Dun get ma fat me, I apologise dear! Really! Whether am I in te wrong or not?? I dun wanna cry again and all b?! Every time I try be strong, I end up under a deilema! I'm sorry b! If I'm being a bother to you so much that you dun wanna talk to me not see me, I understand dear. I'm feeling as though I'm not giving you the life you want or anything?! I dunno b! ;(

8/8/2013 (Thursday)

Well, its a public holiday yeah! Hari Raya... Boring la! I didn't really go anywhere today la, Really it was boring day la! I end up just watching movies in the lappy and all! Nothing much about thursday! B, went to Malaysia! Well, i was really tired and all, waited for b, till she came back so that i can like text her, least before sleeping! But i think i end up annoying her before i sleep! Haiz.. Sorry love! :(

9/9/2013 (Friday)

Friday, NAtional day! hahahs! BORING la! Who wanna stay at home sia! Woke up in the morning like at 7, went to hougang to meet Dylan and Sasi, Morning headed to the gym, hougang gym! Did biceps and chest! DAmn it was one hell of a tonning up yeah! After that, went to Hougang pool. hehe! Did some swimming and all! Damn shagged la! B, went to watch COnjuring! :) Must watch that movie soon la! hahas! Was too tired, came back home and was sleeping, had the nicest dream! Dreamt that i was having 2 kids, B, of course, my lawfully wedded wife, Prithi M Nair, hehe! :) 2 kids, Twins! :) BOY AND A GIRL! :) I dreamt the process of B, giving birth and all, till the kids were like 3 years old! :) hehe! B, you should know ah! hehe! :) Then, woke up, had dinner, was watching Amazing Spider man, plus, Ambraham Lincolin, mission possible ghost protocol! hahas! Doubt i will be sleeping early now! Missed you baby! Baby, sleeping now rite! Hugs and kisses from me to you sweetheart, i love you so much... XOXOXOX :)

6/8/2013 ( Tuesday )

Well, second day of the week, since no school, hehe! Followed b to school, so met her at her place and then followed to school, before reaching, quarreled! About the rating thingy, and morning, pissed b, haiz, after awhile, it was fine and all, then i started my nonsense again. 

Hey b, usually, I just wanna say few things and all, my purpose of blogging things here is to at times let me know and make me remember things so that in future i wont do it again, and also to show my feelings and emotion! I dun mean to pin point any mistakes or anything sweets! Please dun mistake me alright! The second time i pissed her was about twitter on that day! Well, i was looking through her twitter and saw certain tweets and was wondering what were they about... So end up, i asked b about it but i think i sounded as though i was controlling her... My baby, Prithi.M.Nair, I know how it is like being controlled alright dear, think about it for awhile sweetheart, do you actually think that i was controlling you... Of all the times i have been with you? I have no intentions of controlling you dear... I know how its like... Please baby, i have all the rights to be concerned dear, if you thought or having the feeling that i am not giving you much space or invading your privacy, PLEASE TELL ME! Whether you are happy or sad, angry or bothered about something, IT AFFECTS ME  DEAR, because i love you dear... I care for you, and seeing you happy is nothing important than anything else dear, please understand that! If i sound harsh, sorry baby! I just wanna make things clear sweetie... Well, for that day, things didn't go well, from the had to go back, worse part, i also had a game on that day... Honestly, i actually thought it was the end for me... Really!!!! The only thing that means more than anything else, didn't wan me and asked me to not see her like for 2 months and all... Thought it was over for me, with that mentality, i didn't perform well that game, i was on the verge of just quitting soccer... You can ask me, how does soccer and Prithi relate? Yes it does...

Our so call the first time, i asked her if she liked me was during the TP game at TP, that very day, every minute of that day means so much to me... Its just the fact that if i am happy with her, i would have the confidence to play... If i end up fighting with her, thats it! Though she has not been there during my games or training like that ah, i always wear the ring and play, it some how gives me the confidence....

It had to make things even worse when my team mates girlfriends all was there... My coach gave a speech saying that like it was good that the guys brought their girls to support and all, he in fact was encouraging us to bring our girlfriends... Deep in my heart, i was just wishing how i wish i could have my girl be with me, to support me... For the first half, i didn't play... I wasn't really focusing on the game much, more like my mates being with their girlfriends...
I gotta to admit, god, i was in fact jealous la! :( I understand b! I am sorry if i am stressing things and all, didn't mean to love! I wish you could be by my side while i play dear, you have always been my motivation and my confidence dear... Really b! :) After that game, didn't thought that i might hear from b! But i did, i was so glad to hear from her, seriously!

7/8/2103 ( Wednesday )

Wednesday, Packed food for b, and also brought her some vitamin thingy, she has been having headaches and all, felt better if she could eat some home cooked food, that would be feeling for her as well, brought her egg curry, with cucumber salad thingy and cracker, hahahs! :) Went to Hougang Poly to take MC for b, then went to school to submit it, fed b the food i brought her and was just lepaking la! hahahs! Was a smooth day la! hehe!

Was slacking with b near a playground and after that went to Delifrance to mum mum! :) TUNA SANDWICH! :) it was awesome la! :) But... was not really worth spending much la! sorry to say ah b! I enjoyed it... :) Send b back home and then went back home! hahhas! Muacks!...

4/8/2013 Sunday

Well, Sunday a normal day i guess, couldn't have any plans liao, Next day got exam! So, woke up like at 9 plus, then planned to meet friend, simin, near nex  there to study for validation. So much to memorize, god~ Cannot la, a lot you know! So wordy! Oh, i have to bring b to Nex one day, there is this place that also sells the chicken b! Remember the spicy chicken dear, but this shop got a lot more variety, it also has the BBQ flavor, curry all! I had that for lunch dear! Cost me like 7 bucks, including a drink and a snack of your choice dear! The chicken very big moi! :) It is worth dear! After that, went back home like at 5 plus, was texting b along the way, was puzzled and didn't realize the fact that i wasn't talking to b and all properly! Hurt her so much la! Fuck myself... Imagine for the entire week she was tolerating me! God, Please forgive me my love! Well, once at home, had some chicken sambal that my father bought! Didn't sleep till 1230 a.m. Was still studying but trust me, could not memorize much! zzzz...

5/8/2013 Monday (today)

Well, today was the paper! Dammit, it was raining some more la! Morning woke up and tried revising but it was freaking cold, was still sleepy! Went to school for the paper like 10 mins late! hahahs! Once done, went to TP straight! Morning, kinda annoyed b! B, i am sorry dear! I didn't mean to love! Well spend the day with b through out! WE WERE JUST CRAZY TODAY.... B keeping laughing laaaaaaaaaa! omg! But some how, it really didn't end as i expected! I can't help it but to be pissed also at the same time, i understand the situation! Balancing my emotions is gonna one day cause my issues big time... Pissed at the same time upset and also had to accept the fact that it was really her fault, i am still trying my best love! I am glad that i handle it well today b! I was really pissed b, i admit sweets, but somehow, i understood the situation and calmed myself love! Dun blame yourself or anything... Just hope this does not happen again love! I is missing you baby!!!! <3

எதாவது தவறு கூறினால் அல்லது செய்தால் என்னை மனித்துவிடு மா... உன் மனதைப் புன்படுத்துவது என் நோக்கம் இல்லை மோய்....

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Thursday (1/8/2013)

"HAPPY 9 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY"... <3

Its a Thursday, and yes, its baby and I's 9 month anniversary, Well, it is always a special day for me whenever it is the first of every month! Its when the other part of my life begun... Something that i would always cherish and glad that it happened... I kinda dressed up well and all, some more i had no school, but morning already got scolding from her... Haiz... Poor thing la she, she was already late for school cause her aunty overslept... I kinda annoyed her i guess... When met her in school, was really a good day for us, cause she had a lot of work to do, felt that i shouldn't have bothered her much on this day, cause it was that much of work she had, thought i could spend some time with her and all, yes i did, i was with her, but both of us were studying and all, I had to do POA... So long since i have done that sia! Lucky my friend helped me out! Well, everything ended like 5 plus and followed her to interchange, had to annoy her further as i was contemplating whether should i go for training or not as well... But i didn't, had gastric, so had to go back home, plus i had to do presentation and all for the next day... Not really the 1st that i wanted it to come and all! We did studying together, that is the only good thing that happened on that day i guess... Not too sure if i had missed out anything, but to think of it, was not really a good day for both of us i guess, B, had to go back home in between to bring her textbooks and all, in the end, it was helpful.... Worse, my phone suddenly went off, so call my dad had to go worse...

Friday(2/8/2013)

Friday, i had Lab test, presentation and also, a scalpel project to be done... Well, had to dress up formally... Went to do lab test but i asked for a retest.. Damn it! Next, it was presentation time, i did well though for it, cause the teacher who marked me was one of the teacher who knew me well since year 1, so i did well yeah! :) Am glad! Later was the project and and some how my friend helped me! Thought i would not be meeting B, well i did! :) Went to TP, B still had go some work to do in school and all! So accompanied her... Went back slowly and it was rather a nice day today yeah! Day was smooth and managed to spend time with b, really glad! :) My phone was fixed...

Saturday(3/8/2013) 

Morning went to Dojo, followed mother and sis, came back home like at 12 plus, went to cut hair. After that, went to meet Bing, to play soccer, at Katib, after that, was talking to him and all! He wanted to slack and all! Then, went back home... Didn't like today... 

Hey b, just wanna talk and all, sweets, have i been against anything if you dun like and all? Till now, i just worry that if i dun like something or if feel something isn't right and uncomfortable i would confirm tell you, Well b, i wasn't really happy that you went to your uncle's club moi! I am so sorry to say! I have though over and over again and again throughout the night, yes b, i did not sleep, was wondering if what i think was right or is fair to you... I dunno if i have ever done like that as well or anything, if yes, please enlighten me b! I hope you take this in a proper way and not get mad b, i swear i am not mad and all, didn't fell right! First b, going club is not wrong at all d, but that fact that you so call was alone and non of your family members weren't there, i know your uncle club but how long would he be with you throughout b, He also got an event going on what b, second, you told me you were tired and you also had a quiz on Monday, then why did you go honey? 
Its really not wrong d, you wanna have fun go and all, sure d, no problem... But, you end up being there late till like 2 plus, by the time you reach home and all, you sleep and wake up next day, you can study ah sweets? You tell me this b?? I was really worried b, I wasn't comfortable you being there b, with the fact that your parents or your brother, if you aunt was there also, i would be fine but she isn't here as well b! Why dear? Maybe you wanted time to be alone and all, you wanted to go out and have some fun, maybe  you wanted to just be outside for a change and all, I dunno dear... Its just certain possibilities that i am assuming dear, but i was thinking of the outcome and all! I really wasn't happy with you going, not like i am against it b, but... Didn't feel rite that although it is your uncle club, you there alone and all! :( This is what i know moi, maybe i dunno the entire picture, its just my point of view b! I couldn't sleep at all b! I wasn't against you drinking and all also wad b, i just told you certain things that like i prefer you drinking and all moi! 

You're my love b! I love you so much! I have no intentions of controlling you or wad b, you're a free bird love! But just think of me when you do something b! I am not blaming you or anything b, I care for you and every minute i always think if you're safe and all! Your happiness is my priority b, cause if you aren't happy, it will affect my daily activities  it will just affect me so much b.... I wanted to tell you this directly when i meet you or something, i couldn't just not tell this, just upset b! Forgive me b :( I Hope you would understand how i feel b... Dun be mad b, please... :(